Saturday, January 21, 2012

i've been wanting to ask you something...

he said to me the other day..."i wanted to ask you if you would be my girlfriend"...i closed my eyes thinking, how could i do this to this genuinely nice person...i am talking about that moment when you know someone feels something for you that you do not share...when you say to yourself "i have to be honest with this person and tell him what you are is sweet, kind, and gentle - what i am is tired, jaded, and apathetic"...

and i tried...kinda...

i've heard men say that women only want assholes or jerks...maybe that is true for some women...while i cannot speak for all women, i will say that guys who are "too" nice are like a sandwich without any meat...veggie only style sandwiches are completely overrated, btw...

when a guy makes me feel like a pervy old woman (and i'm not old, just in my thirties, thankyouverymuch!) that is preying on an innocent schoolboy, something is wrong (or is it right? i can never keep that straight!)

in the end, i did say i appreciated his thinking of me but i just am not in a position to be with anyone right now...there is some truth to that, work has had me super busy...

i've been masturbating like crazy lately...got a new toy, lelo soraya and i totally love it!...i've ejaculated several times with this thing...the kind of orgasms that leave you smiling and grinning like a fool...it's such a pretty pretty toy...i still have yet to fully explore this thing, but i just get all giddy thinking about it...i kept saying i would buy a jimmyjane but i ended up with lelo...so glad i did, but i do have my eye on two or three others...

oh, looks like it's all charged up and ready to go...what? what's that you say? it's time to play? oh, well, if you insist....

that's soraya, calling my name...;)

cg

EDIT: btw, i just saw the CUTEST leaf vibes - i am so getting one of those...

1 curious people say...:

Jessi said...

Its hard to be with a guy that's too nice.. even if it's just sex!

They just have to have some bad boy moments or I lose interest.