evidently the obamas are really trying to bring sexy back to the oval office...she makes a stupid comment regarding the whole "fist pounding" thing people do...lol...
cg
Thursday, January 22, 2009
angry boy
soldier boy has a new name...angry boy...this guy has major anger issues...when someone talks about wanting to "kick every fuck face i see because they are mother fucking idiots" all the time...yeah...anger...
i didnt see him at all during his time here...he called a lot at first...i think we talked about three or four times most of it non-sexual because he was so damn ornery that it wasnt much of a turn on...
he is pissed about having to take meds (PTSD) to help with his stress and anxiety...and he smokes waaay more than he used to...he snapped at me one too many times...and not just a little snapping...bit my head off when i was trying to lighten the situation...so he wasnt in the mood for it, okay, but dont tell me "when i tell you to do something, i need you to do it...do you understand?"...
...
i am NOT your subordinate...again...three tours can do a number on a person...but that is not my problem...i am not his guiding light...
argh...
cg
i didnt see him at all during his time here...he called a lot at first...i think we talked about three or four times most of it non-sexual because he was so damn ornery that it wasnt much of a turn on...
he is pissed about having to take meds (PTSD) to help with his stress and anxiety...and he smokes waaay more than he used to...he snapped at me one too many times...and not just a little snapping...bit my head off when i was trying to lighten the situation...so he wasnt in the mood for it, okay, but dont tell me "when i tell you to do something, i need you to do it...do you understand?"...
...
i am NOT your subordinate...again...three tours can do a number on a person...but that is not my problem...i am not his guiding light...
argh...
cg
Sunday, January 18, 2009
when men dont listen
went out this weekend...wasnt really in the mood, but i let myself get talked into it...this younger guy kept talking to me and wanting to dance with me, but i was more interested in the band...after several attempts with me telling him no, he finally just comes up behind me and rubs his pelvis against my ass..no, i was not turned on...he smelled and was a "Y" for yikes...then he did the one thing you should never do to a woman you dont know...
he grabbed my tit, juggled it, then pinched my nipple...
...
i turned to hurt him, but he asked for my number...
...
finally, i realized that i was the grown up...
"how old are you?"
"im 25, but age is just a number, baby"
...
he left when i told him he was too young and too drunk and to keep his hand off my tits...
oh boy...
cg
he grabbed my tit, juggled it, then pinched my nipple...
...
i turned to hurt him, but he asked for my number...
...
finally, i realized that i was the grown up...
"how old are you?"
"im 25, but age is just a number, baby"
...
he left when i told him he was too young and too drunk and to keep his hand off my tits...
oh boy...
cg
power to change
i had another post in mind regarding the results of the poll and other events this weekend, and i still intend to, but first i wanted to comment on a few things...this post could perhaps go in my other blog...oh, well, here is where it shall remain!...
i have a few conversations in my head (hey, the one person who wont talk back! lol) and with others about regrets, wishes, dreams, decisions, and personal history...
when i notice themes occurring repeatedly in a relatively short period of time, i do my best to pay attention and analyze those themes...without dragging it out too long here is a jackson pollack of phrases thrown my way from several sources...one is from a recent movie, see if you can spot it ;)
"i just dont want to be a part of something that has to do with lying"
"i dont believe in regrets because then that means that i didnt learn anything"
"how do you wake up one day and wonder where you got lost?"
"the past belongs to us, and we can change it"
"i dont like living in fear of another person's weaknesses"
"i'm not proud of everything in my life, but one thing i can say is that i tried"
"i wont wait forever, once that door closes, it stays closed"
"you can stay huddled in your safe corner forever, or take a leap of faith"
all of the above statements, with the exception of one, came from other people regarding various issues...but the common theme was about choices we make or dont make...
what those statements tell me is that the our past, present, and future is not a simple shape with four perfect sides and equal corners...it begins shapeless and through a series of choices (not making a choice is a choice) it takes form...one day we realize that we either dont like what we see or are surprised at the beauty of it...when we are not happy with it we cant always see an easy "fix"...it took years down that path to get to the middle of nowhere...and the rising sun makes it hard to see the greyhound bus waiting at the end of the road....
others see it and become frustrated when we do not...they wave their arms and shout to us, but we are so encumbered by our realizations, that we are not able to see and hear...they are disgusted with us...they resent us and find us lacking or weak...
finding the power inside of ourselves to change is not always easy...for some, we can find a switch and click! we are on a different road...but we are each of us different...
i have shared my growing sexuality on this blog...i have learned about myself and others...i have learned that i am much more open-minded than i would ever have realized...i have made poor choices as well...and that's okay...making poor choices means that i did, for a moment at least, step out of that safe corner and took a leap of faith...i think i will gradually take more leaps...change is never the volatile, volcanic eruption that we see...it is a series of smaller events that lead to what we label "the change"...
what led most of you to blogging here...just curious, i suppose...sometimes the reasons we start something is different from the reasons we continue to do them...
cg
i have a few conversations in my head (hey, the one person who wont talk back! lol) and with others about regrets, wishes, dreams, decisions, and personal history...
when i notice themes occurring repeatedly in a relatively short period of time, i do my best to pay attention and analyze those themes...without dragging it out too long here is a jackson pollack of phrases thrown my way from several sources...one is from a recent movie, see if you can spot it ;)
"i just dont want to be a part of something that has to do with lying"
"i dont believe in regrets because then that means that i didnt learn anything"
"how do you wake up one day and wonder where you got lost?"
"the past belongs to us, and we can change it"
"i dont like living in fear of another person's weaknesses"
"i'm not proud of everything in my life, but one thing i can say is that i tried"
"i wont wait forever, once that door closes, it stays closed"
"you can stay huddled in your safe corner forever, or take a leap of faith"
all of the above statements, with the exception of one, came from other people regarding various issues...but the common theme was about choices we make or dont make...
what those statements tell me is that the our past, present, and future is not a simple shape with four perfect sides and equal corners...it begins shapeless and through a series of choices (not making a choice is a choice) it takes form...one day we realize that we either dont like what we see or are surprised at the beauty of it...when we are not happy with it we cant always see an easy "fix"...it took years down that path to get to the middle of nowhere...and the rising sun makes it hard to see the greyhound bus waiting at the end of the road....
others see it and become frustrated when we do not...they wave their arms and shout to us, but we are so encumbered by our realizations, that we are not able to see and hear...they are disgusted with us...they resent us and find us lacking or weak...
finding the power inside of ourselves to change is not always easy...for some, we can find a switch and click! we are on a different road...but we are each of us different...
i have shared my growing sexuality on this blog...i have learned about myself and others...i have learned that i am much more open-minded than i would ever have realized...i have made poor choices as well...and that's okay...making poor choices means that i did, for a moment at least, step out of that safe corner and took a leap of faith...i think i will gradually take more leaps...change is never the volatile, volcanic eruption that we see...it is a series of smaller events that lead to what we label "the change"...
what led most of you to blogging here...just curious, i suppose...sometimes the reasons we start something is different from the reasons we continue to do them...
cg
Saturday, January 17, 2009
sick girl
bleh..been sick...another freakin' cold...sokay though...i will have a post later this afternoon/early evening!...
toodles!
cg
toodles!
cg
Sunday, January 11, 2009
cherry blossom girl
on merlin's blog he has been reminiscing the growth of his and nimue's relationship...it reminded me of the sexual connection between people and flowers...something that has existed as far back as mankind has existed....
love is the evolution of all those things we put into it...and the flower is the sexual realization of that effort...
like the sun that warms the earth, our bodies warm over by thought, touch, smell...slight stirrings evoke subtle feelings of arousal...our bodies fill with the hot blood that courses through our veins giving way to erect cocks and swollen pussies...
as the farmer tills the soil, so does our lover stoke the flames within our bodies...we become both relaxed and tense...relaxing into the embrace....tense in anticipation...
that seed of sexual desire pushes against the shell of rationalization...we shed the logical thought and pursue the warmth...we want to feel that heat...that radiation of life...
that tight little bud, coaxed into unfurling its leaves...we open ourselves to the sensuality of our lover...
i sit here and feel the heaviness that pulsates between my legs...i can feel the wetness spreading on my panties...i shift my hips slightly to apply a touch more pressure...i can smell myself on my fingers...it is arousing to me...writing these words arouses me...i am sharing that arousal with you...
cg
love is the evolution of all those things we put into it...and the flower is the sexual realization of that effort...
like the sun that warms the earth, our bodies warm over by thought, touch, smell...slight stirrings evoke subtle feelings of arousal...our bodies fill with the hot blood that courses through our veins giving way to erect cocks and swollen pussies...
as the farmer tills the soil, so does our lover stoke the flames within our bodies...we become both relaxed and tense...relaxing into the embrace....tense in anticipation...
that seed of sexual desire pushes against the shell of rationalization...we shed the logical thought and pursue the warmth...we want to feel that heat...that radiation of life...
that tight little bud, coaxed into unfurling its leaves...we open ourselves to the sensuality of our lover...
i sit here and feel the heaviness that pulsates between my legs...i can feel the wetness spreading on my panties...i shift my hips slightly to apply a touch more pressure...i can smell myself on my fingers...it is arousing to me...writing these words arouses me...i am sharing that arousal with you...
cg
virgin state of mind
i want my hands to touch as if they have never felt anything so warm...
i want my eyes to see as if they have never seen colors so vivid...
i want my tongue to taste as if it has never tasted anything so rich...
i want my ears to hear as if every note is new and never before composed...
i want my nose to smell as if every scent will linger forever in my memory...
i want to push the boundaries of what i thought i knew...
i want to stretch my mind beyond the limits of my own comprehension...
i want to reach places i never imagined i would desire to be...
i want to heal the places that echo within...
i want to awaken the voice that i know slumbers still...
i want to shatter the glass that surrounds my virgin state of mind...
cg
i want my eyes to see as if they have never seen colors so vivid...
i want my tongue to taste as if it has never tasted anything so rich...
i want my ears to hear as if every note is new and never before composed...
i want my nose to smell as if every scent will linger forever in my memory...
i want to push the boundaries of what i thought i knew...
i want to stretch my mind beyond the limits of my own comprehension...
i want to reach places i never imagined i would desire to be...
i want to heal the places that echo within...
i want to awaken the voice that i know slumbers still...
i want to shatter the glass that surrounds my virgin state of mind...
cg
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
how to turn a woman off
a friend is dating this guy who within a week said "i love you"...within two weeks "you complete me"...within a month was talking about kids together...
um...and men thought women were bad...
then here comes the jealousy...after nearly three months..."i dont like that you have so many guy friends"..and.."i need you to prove you are loyal to me"...hmm...you dont say?....well guess what miss-has-never-cheated-and-been-nothing-but-loyal had to say...
so what do you think are ways to turn a woman (or a man) off?
cg
um...and men thought women were bad...
then here comes the jealousy...after nearly three months..."i dont like that you have so many guy friends"..and.."i need you to prove you are loyal to me"...hmm...you dont say?....well guess what miss-has-never-cheated-and-been-nothing-but-loyal had to say...
so what do you think are ways to turn a woman (or a man) off?
cg
Saturday, January 3, 2009
garden or vessel?
from the movie "circle of friends":
"which is it to be: gardens for jesus or vessels of sin?"
lol
cg
"which is it to be: gardens for jesus or vessels of sin?"
lol
cg
porn and the death of american society
comfy made an interesting comment about the professional porn industry and how its promotion of certain body types, etc is part of what is killing american society...my response to her comment is a post on my curiosities and musings blog...go take a look...
cg
cg
Friday, January 2, 2009
do the poll dance
since i am really curious about you guys and what you like, take a few sex and do the poll dance to the righty tighty....
cg
cg
porn on the cob
i was having a delightful conversation (yes, i fucking said delightful) about porn choices out there...aneris essentially asked where was the line between naked people taking a video of themselves and porn...
hmm...well, it's all porn, i said...but she was referring to fantasy-based porn...and i quipped that the difference between a professional and an amateur is that the professional gets paid...old line, but there you have it...
thus launched a discussion in the porn that fuels our state of arousal...i, on the one hand, enjoy amateur porn...it can be both arousing and funny at the same time...i just enjoy the fact that it is real people...
aneris, on the other hand, wants her fantasy porn to be specific...so there was the naked line...professional porn (whether well done or not) is very specific to a theme typically...there is a specific purpose for the porn...amateur porn is, as aneris put it, naked people taking a video of themselves...
some people do want their porn to fuel something particular...they use it to evoke/intensify a desire for something...
amateur porn could do that as well, although it can be really hit or miss....you could go for long extended periods of time where you are going "okay...hmm"...and you fast forward or walk away for a while...plus...EVERYONE thinks they are jenna jameson...and they are NOT...
"pro-porn" cuts out a lot of the nonsense and gets to the goods right away...no long date before the happy ending fuck...the most minimal of expository fluff and then wham!...asses, dicks, cunts, and holes are spread for the world to see in high def...
where do you stand on the porn fence?...i would LOVE to know what a few of you might think...;)
cg
hmm...well, it's all porn, i said...but she was referring to fantasy-based porn...and i quipped that the difference between a professional and an amateur is that the professional gets paid...old line, but there you have it...
thus launched a discussion in the porn that fuels our state of arousal...i, on the one hand, enjoy amateur porn...it can be both arousing and funny at the same time...i just enjoy the fact that it is real people...
aneris, on the other hand, wants her fantasy porn to be specific...so there was the naked line...professional porn (whether well done or not) is very specific to a theme typically...there is a specific purpose for the porn...amateur porn is, as aneris put it, naked people taking a video of themselves...
some people do want their porn to fuel something particular...they use it to evoke/intensify a desire for something...
amateur porn could do that as well, although it can be really hit or miss....you could go for long extended periods of time where you are going "okay...hmm"...and you fast forward or walk away for a while...plus...EVERYONE thinks they are jenna jameson...and they are NOT...
"pro-porn" cuts out a lot of the nonsense and gets to the goods right away...no long date before the happy ending fuck...the most minimal of expository fluff and then wham!...asses, dicks, cunts, and holes are spread for the world to see in high def...
where do you stand on the porn fence?...i would LOVE to know what a few of you might think...;)
cg
Thursday, January 1, 2009
new kid on the block
after all this time...bi-guy has finally read my blog...finally!...i really wasnt sure if i was ready for him to see it...hell, i had no idea what i had posted about him...
get this...he said my blog was "classy, very grown up"...that was very nice...if we are lucky...he may drop in and say hi...so be nice everyone...
oh, and get this...he likes aneris...weird, i know...but since i totally heart her that's all good...;)
we had a good long talk today about his long time interest in a "dominant, sexy, powerful woman" in the bedroom....i was surprised that we had not discussed this before...i am trying to see if he will do a guest post on here about the stuff we talked about today...he is considering it....
hmm...it feels like "bring a friend to bingo night"...
cg
get this...he said my blog was "classy, very grown up"...that was very nice...if we are lucky...he may drop in and say hi...so be nice everyone...
oh, and get this...he likes aneris...weird, i know...but since i totally heart her that's all good...;)
we had a good long talk today about his long time interest in a "dominant, sexy, powerful woman" in the bedroom....i was surprised that we had not discussed this before...i am trying to see if he will do a guest post on here about the stuff we talked about today...he is considering it....
hmm...it feels like "bring a friend to bingo night"...
cg
99 bottles
two nights in a row...up til 5am...drunken walks to the 24-hour grocery store...vodka so smooth you cant taste it...until it creeps up on your and rapes you in the ass...
writing on someone's drunk face...not mine!...lol...
all this craziness has left me uber horny...the amount of wetness is insane...i normally get really wet anyhow, but even more so lately...had a nice email from someone telling me how horny he was...damn...that was nice...
he asked "did you at least get laid?"...erm, no...i was with family and friends, so nope...
this curious girl will spend a quiet day recovering...i'll just be lurking around probably chatting with aneris! lol...
happy new year!!
cg
writing on someone's drunk face...not mine!...lol...
all this craziness has left me uber horny...the amount of wetness is insane...i normally get really wet anyhow, but even more so lately...had a nice email from someone telling me how horny he was...damn...that was nice...
he asked "did you at least get laid?"...erm, no...i was with family and friends, so nope...
this curious girl will spend a quiet day recovering...i'll just be lurking around probably chatting with aneris! lol...
happy new year!!
cg
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