a trip to the park

one of the last posts i mentioned a date where we had strong sexual chemistry...first of all, he was proof to me that initial reactions to ppl dont always factor into chemistry...i mean...i am very short...and he is very tall (which i knew from pics and what he'd said)...usually, i dont like guys to be more than ten or twelve inches taller than me...he surpassed that by a lot...but he was very nice, sweet, and around my age...

we met at a park and when i saw him i gave him a hug and when he leaned over so that i could do that, he was went right to my hip and kinda squeezed lightly...now, prior to this, we had exchanged emails, texts, and talked on the phone...i will say this...his voice...damn...that deep southern voice...just did things to me that he doesnt know about yet lol...and when that voice goes with that whole "southern gentleman" thing...if you dont know what im talking about, find one of them and you will totally understand! lol...

i did my usual avoid too much eye contact, talk too much thing until i settled down a bit...we walked around and just talked for a while...i could tell that he was trying to let me get to a comfort zone...he kept his distance and kinda watched me for cues...

it was raining a little so we went into his car...there wasnt anyone around but we were in a residential area so cars would come and go but with the time of day, weather, and where we were situated, we were a bit secluded...

i could tell by the look in his eyes that he was somewhat aroused...we had had discussions of semi-public acts of intimacy and i knew that he was thinking of that...i undid the top of my shirt and told him i was nervous...he laughed and showed me his hands and that he was nervous too...that his palms were sweaty and he wiped them on his pants...the minute his hands touched my breasts there was a very clear connection...his fingers were long and cool and eager to reach into my bra...his mouth latched onto my breast, pulling the nipple into his mouth with the bristles of his facial hair brushing against my breast...he wanted to touch my between my legs but i wasnt quite ready for that...

he eased my other breast out of the bra and teased my nipple with his lips, tongue, and teeth...i wanted to let go...but something made me hold back...i think it was watching cars drive past...

i wanted to see his cock...he pulled it out...and he was stroking it while playing with my breasts...he told me he really wanted to feel my lips on it but that he would understand if i didnt want to on the first time we met...i leaned over and flicked my tongue against it...he arched his back and raised his hips and moaned softly...

he asked me if i wanted to see him cum...and i did...so i wrapped my fingers around his cock and rubbed his precum over the head...when he came...it was hot, thick, and creamy...it came it giant spurts...all over my hand and on his pants (which he wasnt expecting, typically lands on his stomach and chest)...luckily, i happened to have a wet wipe thing in my purse and he had napkins in his car...i knew that we would meet again....and that next time i would most def be putting his cock in my mouth...

i am getting wet just thinking about it...

cg

comment moderation

ugh...i hate comment moderation bc it is just one more thing for me to do, but i kept getting all those stupid things on my comments...in general, most comments will be allowed to go through...whether you like me or not...just not the spam whatnot...

just fyi....

cg

updates, new ppl, and renewed energy

coming back here is like coming home to a house that has been vacant for years but has so many good memories...curtains are opened to welcome streams of pale yellow light that reveal floating dust particles that have been sitting and waiting for someone to cast them aside...floors are dusted and cleaned to showcase worn, but sturdy wood planks that creak in certain places but are eager for more visitors to admire their classic beauty...linens are washed and returned to their rightful places with a sigh that whispers, you've come home...you've come home...

that was awfully dramatic on my part, lol, but i do have a bit of the drama within me at times...

although i've been busy (who isnt??), i am determined to make regular posts on here again...i miss you guys (well, those of you that still pop in from time to time...come back, come back!)...

cg has been a busy girl and i have actually been meeting lots of new ppl...it all started with biguy...yep...he planted the seed in my brain without even knowing...we all out having drinks one night (cg, biguy, little cg) and he was talking about how he needed to meet more ppl...and then a friend of mine said how ive become this wretched little hermit (oh, i know, only the very dearest of friends will tell us such lovely things about ourselves!) that holes herself away night after night, week after week...you get the idea...

so...i made it a goal to shed that hermit skin (yes, i know it's a shell, but its more fun to say skin)...i wasnt/am not looking for a relationship, just see what adventures/experiences i get out of it all...

so let's go through the dates, shall we?

1) nice, long lunch...no real sexual energy/chemistry but great conversation...he wanted to continue the date at the movies...i declined (two hour lunch is plenty long enough for a first date, imo) and said i'd be up for it another time...then...i sent followup thank you email next day thanking for lunch, etc, very general...email didnt go through...sent again, same response...so cg sent brief reply via chat thanking for lunch, email issue, understanding that probably didnt want to meet again, no hard feelings...i get a response...his gf found the email (lol, i know, right??) exchanges, was upset, made him delete the acct, blah blah blah...whatever, it was funny, tho, right?

2) very very intelligent...dinner date...great connection...attractive...then comes the punchline...has a gf (this is going to be a recurring theme, lol) but would love to have arrangements with me if i am interested...i declined saying i really didnt want to have a cuckoo woman chasing me down and making my life crazy...but i said if he wanted to remain friends, i was cool with that...he said that was fine...

3) super young...early 20s...very very sexual and attractive...smart, funny, different in a good way...poor baby has so many life issues right now that anything more would be way too complicated and unnecessary...but we get along great and once he gets life together (which may or may not happen anytime soon) he'll be amazing for any woman...at this time, we are good friends...

4) another young'un (there is such a thing as too young, either mentally or biologically, and this one was it!)...waay too comfortable too fast...i felt like i was scolding him the entire time (dont slap my ass, dont touch me here/there)...and i totally gave that stern parent look more than once along with a few finger wags...it was not fun and i will NOT revisit that one again...not even when he went on and on about his sexual skillz...hell NO...

5)strong sexual chemistry...both meetings went very very well...talk centers mostly around sex...which is fine with me...he came on my hand the first night we met...nice...set to meet again end of next week...

6) another crazy intelligent one...he very much wants a fwb thing...i'm not sure...he's attractive, intelligent, etc...but maybe we are both too much of the same intellectually...also, #5 seems very intent on pursuing me but not too aggressively and i dont think i could handle sexual relations with more than one person at a time...but, we are set to meet again this week, so, we will see what develops...

7) female, totally friends only...she is very sweet and we seem to get along rather well...she is having some relationship issues that i dont know if i want to discuss here...she knows about my blog, but not sure what she would feel comfortable about me discussing...

and in the middle of all of the above...soldier boy kept calling and calling...wants to hook up again...he's older now (hell, i'd forgotten he'd aged lol) and seems calmer...but...idk...sure, he's got an big cock, but that isnt everything and his drama is too much...

also, that friend i mentioned with all the drama has more drama...i told him..for someone who (in his own words) has no friends, no job, no life, you sure have a LOT Of drama...his gf (who is with another guy) has left him (again), he is having lots of seizures, losing more relationships due to drama with the gf and other personal problems...i maintain a friendship bc i know i might be the only person who will listen and he knows it too...he needs help, he knows it...he needs to let go of the gf and focus on his health and his child...hopefully he will listen!

whew!...that was a lot of typing...i will update more tomorrow...

cg

absence makes the heart grow fonder...

so they say...or, so someone once said...perhaps my absence has made your hearts grow more fond or fonder...which is grammatically correct? ...does it matter....

i've been meaning to update on the married friend i posted about a couple of posts ago...he read it and was a little upset...

anyhow, i did something that for sure many people would not do, but...here it goes...i gave him some money because he had nothing and, at the time, was snowing and he had no electricity...so...i gave him money for that, some gas, and food....

i did it as a friend, because there are times when i have needed help (not necessarily financially), and someone has freely given that assistance...he never asked for it either...i freely gave it, no strings...the question here is this: was there anyone else, a family member or other friend, that could have helped him out?...the answer is: not exactly...for whatever extenuating circumstances there are, he does not have that kind of relationship with them...it wasnt much, only $250...but it is an enormous amount when you dont have it...

here's a question for everyone (completely unrelated to the above information): if you arent physically attracted to someone, do you still go out with that person out of curiosity that something may develop or do you just keep it as friends?...the reason i ask is that someone i know has been asking me out a lot (i continually say no) and i am tempted to say yes for some unknown reason...if you ask me "do you like him"....i'd say...eh...i guess...the answer is "i should like him in "that" way"..but...i dont...at least i dont think i do...or do i just say that because i'd rather not fuss with it all...anyhow, i am thinking of say "yes" just for the hell of it...not sure why...i sometimes lack the ability to justify my answers...but then i realize...i dont always have to justify them, do i....

ah well...

cg

and then i came

it had been a long time since i had found something while browsing online that aroused me so much i had to come...of course, it had been a long time since i'd browsed online period without it relating to work...

because it had been so long the arousal was not a slow-building one...it was intense, fast, and hot...it wasnt necessarily what i was seeing/reading...it was that my brain said, "oh, yesss...i've missed that"...

and my brain sent this instant text message to the cradle of warmth between my legs and i was pleased to know i was able to achieve this intense arousal with little encouragement...

oh, how i enjoyed the wetness, the scent, my gasps for breath....that warm, melting feeling as i slipped away into this delicious place of heightened senses...further i fell into the welcoming arms of my own sensuality...

and then i came...

cg

update and a funny i came across

okay, so update on the last few months...i've been hibernating...i dont know how those of you who live where it snows all the time can handle that lingering cold weather...i used to think "oh, how fun!"...yeah...well, that was before the warm temperatures took a lickin' and ran away from mid nov to now...i know, i know, i am just whining, but this texas flower just ain't used to it none!...

someone i've known for a long time recently told me some interesting stuff...if you are reading this, dont get mad, just know that no one on here knows who you you are (let's hope!)...

first - we started up communications again last spring...

second - he has attempted self-euthanasia (my own term for it) twice in about 4 or 6 weeks

third - he told me two days ago that: a) when we started up communications again he was MARRIED (still is) b) he has a child he NEVER told me about

he said he never told me because he was afraid he would lose me...hmm...but you were married with a baby on the way...that would have been nice information to know...granted, he says they were unhappy, but still...

i told him that he needs to shift his fixation off of me and onto himself and his child (he is in process of divorce)...

i am not angry...i am super-surprised...but,like i told him, in a way i am not...i always knew he wasnt telling me everything...things centered around his depression and me to the point that i felt a lot of guilt when he would tell me about his s-e attempts...primarily because of the "i wanted something and i know i cant have it" (me)...

now i totally understand that it really has nothing to do with me (which i knew inside) but with the drama of being married, having a child, not being with that child (i wont go into that here), and the complications that result when you try to take your life twice and have the realities of life to go back to...the problems do not go away...

i do not know if he wants to help himself tho...i think, in a sense, it is easier to not face the realities, let them overwhelm him...he sees life as insurmountable...something to fall away from...the depression and other issues do not help, and yes, he is seeking medical help for all of that...

a friend of mine has suggested that i cut off total communication from him...that i cannot and should not help him...i see his point...

is it terrible that listening to his plight made me look at my own life and totally put things into perspective...nothing i have ever experienced has ever ever come remotely close to all of that...the most struggle was with EHB...i havent heard from her nor do i care to...what galls me is that in many ways i am very much like her...family!

oh!...also, here was a little funny i got from sage's blog...

LET ME SEE IF I GOT THIS RIGHT.

IF YOU CROSS THE NORTH KOREAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 12 YEARS HARD LABOR.

IF YOU CROSS THE IRANIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU ARE DETAINED INDEFINITELY.

IF YOU CROSS THE AFGHAN BORDER ILLEGALLY, YOU GET SHOT.

IF YOU CROSS THE SAUDI ARABIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE JAILED.

IF YOU CROSS THE CHINESE BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU MAY NEVER BE HEARD FROM AGAIN.

IF YOU CROSS THE VENEZUELAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE BRANDED A SPY AND YOUR FATE WILL BE SEALED..

IF YOU CROSS THE CUBAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE THROWN INTO POLITICAL PRISON TO ROT.




IF YOU CROSS THE U.S. BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET

* A JOB,
* A DRIVERS LICENSE,
* SOCIAL SECURITY CARD,
* WELFARE,
* FOOD STAMPS,
* CREDIT CARDS,
* SUBSIDIZED RENT OR A LOAN TO BUY A HOUSE,
* FREE EDUCATION,
* FREE HEALTH CARE,
* A LOBBYIST IN WASHINGTON
* BILLIONS OF DOLLARS WORTH OF PUBLIC DOCUMENTS PRINTED IN YOUR LANGUAGE
* THE RIGHT TO CARRY YOUR COUNTRYS FLAG WHILE YOU PROTEST THAT YOU DONT GET ENOUGH RESPECT
* AND, IN MANY INSTANCES, YOU CAN VOTE.




I JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE I HAD A FIRM GRASP ON THE SITUATION!

toodles!

cg

surely you were meant to listen to this song

i've been a fan of trixie whitley for a while now and this latest collab effort is just amazing....supposedly the link is good for only 30 days...go listen...

cg