sex bomb

yesterday, i came four times...i was extremely hormonal...men have no idea what women go through!...it's like being the seven dwarfs all at the same time...i think they left out the 8th one...horny...

when i told him this was his response:

"man, you're a little sex bomb! i love it!"

we really need to fix this issue with the conflicting schedules...fast

cg

the power of the pussy

one of the things i enjoy about blogging are some of the interesting people i "meet" via email...sometimes, these people drift in for a while and others will linger on....anyhow, today's post was plucked out of the in/outbox:

him: Oh come on, you can't make me believe you're what, 30-something and you haven't yet come to terms with the fact that you have to manage men? You're just in denial, that's all, hoping gravity doesn't exist, or E does not equal MC squared.


me:have you ever been a woman trying to manage men?...think about that for just a second...

on that note...last night i sent a naughty text to a man...talking about how i was using one of my toys...he said, damn, now im all hard...he wanted to call..i said...no, gn!....to which he replied "damn!...i'll get you back!"....

no you wont, i texted...why not?, he queried...because you dont have the pussy.

he's young...he has so much to learn...



him: Damn, you make a good point there. Man has to have the vitamin P, else the world stops. Okay, you win.

me: the power pussy...all holy and powerful...more than a vessel...it is like a magical chalice of goodness...there are even the rare purity pussies...pussies so pure that they can bring a man back from the brink of death..

of course, those are only rumors...

damn, that was funny, that might make a funny post lol


him: lmao, you're right, that would make a good post. Call it the holy grail of pussies. And we men will send thousands of ships across the sea just to fight and win one. Yes, this young man of yours has a lot to learn about the power between your legs.

its been a long tough week for me...work is kickin' my ass!...i'll work a "real" post for tomorrow or even later tonight if i can stay awake that long lol...

power to the pussy!

cg

making out in the car

i want to see you, he said to me...

i cant...i have plans...

please...i need to see you...i can meet you anywhere, he says...

no, i am already on the way home and i have plans with friends...

please, he begs me, i have been waiting for you...i want you...now...give me 20 minutes...just to see you...nothing else...unless you want it...

i hesitated...what was i thinking?....he was around the corner...i had only to say the words and he would be here...but i also had people coming over soon...

he was there in less than a minute...i pulled on my jeans and took my hair down from its loose bun...barefoot i made my way outside...i slid into the seat and he reached for me immediately...our lips touched...i tasted his tongue...he pushed my shirt aside and pulled out my breasts...he latched on and tugged with his tongue and lips...his fingers pressing between my legs...

he pulled out his cock...he wanted me to taste it...but i couldnt...not when i knew any minute someone would arrive...i could explain a visitor, but my head in the visitor's lap?...everyone would want to know...how did you meet?...who is he?...why didnt you tell us?...

i played with it...teasing him...i wanted to taste it so bad...but i wouldnt...i wanted him to want it more...he played with my nipples...making me so wet....

he left...we both had to go....it was short...but enough of a taste to make us want more...

cg

from the outbox

this was pulled from an email exchange between myself and one of my blogger buddies (he thought it would be a good post!):


my email:

oh he is so deliciously innocent i feel like a vampire ready to suck him dry!...he wanted to come over last night...i told him no...i do not live alone and these things have their time...you cannot rush into things...you must savor them and let the anticipation build a bit...you do not gulp a glass of champagne...you sip..let the fizzy bubbles tickle your tongue and the back of your throat...you savor the cool sweetness and let a soft smile play upon your lips...and maybe...at the bottom of the glass...there is a sliver of a strawberry, heavy with that cool, fizzy sweetness waiting to burst inside your mouth...

"im a terrible lover" he says "but i love going down on a woman...i could do it all day and not cum...because i want her to cum over and over..."

terrible?...because he would cum first...he says this with a chuckle...he isnt bitter or bothered...it simply is and he doesnt mind because in his words "it is all about making the woman cum"...

i asked him "what if i told you that you could have orgasms without ejaculating?"...he laughed and said it wasnt possible...oh, but it is, i said...he wants to know...how to do it...it takes time, i said...time and patience...if he is looking for a quick answer he wont find it, i said, but if he wants a journey of discovering himself through sex and intimacy, then that is a path that he may want to consider...

we would have time this weekend but i have other commitments...plus...he can wait...it will be good for you to wait, i told him...i could feel him grinning that boyish grin of his...okay... he said...i can wait!...just tell me what to do!

yes, i feel like a vampire prepping the young virgin for his fall into the dark embrace...

what a rush...

the response:

Cg, that would make a tremendous post...Very sensual and very much an erotic story and also a very good one for the girl being in charge. You tell him you have a male friend (me) who personally knows it is possible to orgasm without ejaculating....and when it happens it is so much fun....there are mystics in India who go their whole lives without spilling their seed but orgasm almost on self demand....

The journey is often the better part of the trip...The destination is always more disappointing than the travel flyer suggests....Too have a woman control the orgasm and the ejaculation is one of life's true pleasures.....that is why I love it when my wife brings me to the edge and just keeps me there...she does it as much for her pleasure...at first she thought she was depriving me of something...Now she knows she deprives me of the eternal tease if she lets me cum......

Yes my lovely vampire, suck the virginity right out of him....deny him what he wants and you will have him eating from your hand......his dick will be your dick...Your toy to take out and play with whenever you want......thanks for sharing with me..

yep, i guess that was a nice post after all!

(you really do encounter the neatest people through blogging!)

cg

i cant believe its not butter!

i was looking for a new lube to use (the one i was using was causing this burning for like a day or so ...tried it a few times, same feeling...but when i didnt use it and used my own "natural" lube, i was fine)...anyhow, i am leery of commercial lubes, so in my searches i came across boy butter...

...boy...butter...

now doesnt THAT sound someone's special gfwb..."yeah, that's tom in this picture...he's my boy butter...he ALWAYS gets me going!"

it looks interesting for sure, and i think i might try some out if only to say i have...i bet it'd make an awesome bride-to-be gift, lol...

honestly, i think i might try coconut oil/butter as well (that is how i found boy butter in the first place!)...anyone ever tried it?...

cg

the good boy

that was hot, he said, when i told him he was a good boy...he said he enjoys pleasing a woman and getting a reward for being good...

he is younger...several years....he may not know what he wants...

but i might be able to help him find out...;)

cg

the ponderance of men

men are endlessly fascinating to this common observer of the world...how they can seem so sure of themselves one minute and so unsure of themselves the next...how they can be so hard, rough, incapable of any kind of flexibility at all and yet, like the sea, they moving soft and low then hard and deep...they project such an outward appearance of no concern regarding the opinions or thoughts of others that it may be easy to underestimate the complexity that lies beneath...

i read a comment on court's blog recently by the fascinating keats...court questioned if men at times feel that little knot of worry that can niggle, wiggle into a woman's mind, heart, and soul when feeling a lover has mentally moved on...that lack of attention or concern we perceive when we havent heard from that special person can fester into irritation, anger, sadness, and even fear...

keats replied with:

Of course men think the same.

“Where is she?”
“How come she hasn’t emailed me yet today?”
“She’s not in chat. She wouldn’t be avoiding me, would she?”

Sound familiar? The difference is that men are often egotistical non-communicators, meaning when we aren’t confident about what we want to say or how it will be received, we simply don’t communicate. I know, it’s a stupid avoidance tactic that serves to keep our fragile egos intact, but the unintended benefit is that so much just magically gets cleared up prior to us reaching our breaking point.

“Hey, babe, so you were at your sister’s all day? Yeah, I emailed once but when you didn’t respond I just figured you were off doing something. I knew you’d email when you were free. No worries.”

We’re just really really good at not letting you women see us sweat.

i thought about this for a while...it lingered in my brain and sat comfortably in a tiny nook, settling...are we as women so concerned with ourselves that we forget the humanity that, even if only a little!, lies buried beneath this exterior that men portray to us?...we scheme on attention seeking behaviors (oh, how we praise ourselves for our subtlety that surely no one else can see!) in order to captivate, enchant, and beguile our men...it reminds us of our femininity and our power to capture the heart (if only for a brief moment!) of our prey (for make no mistake, gentlemen, you are the prey and we are the huntresses)...

when i told keats that i was inspired to create a post on his comment, he seemed somewhat amused that perhaps my post would be about something that had caused me to become distraught, upset...how very wrong you are, sir!...

i do not think my pendulum will swing so far to the extreme that i will overcompensate and flood my lovely interest(s) with undying attention (after all, who would want THAT 24/7) to make sure he knows i am thinking of him...however, i will endeavor to remember that men do enjoy those special notes, gestures, and tokens of attention as well...they may not show their appreciation in the same way as a woman would, but that increased ardor in the bedroom (or hallway, living room, bathroom, kitchen table) will their way of saying "hey, babe, thanks for that email today, that made my day!"

(ironically, i cannot STAND the word "babe"...not quite sure why...has always bothered me...but only when someone uses it with me, i could care less when other people use it with each other)

cg

missed opportunities

i got some naughty pics from sexy texan...they were very nice!...my week has been very hectic so time hasnt been on our side for setting up time to get together again...but then i get a text...can we meet tonight?...damn!...i really wanted to..but there is just no way with the way my week has been at work...maybe later this week?...def next week...

tonight, though, i will take a long, lovely bath...soak in the hot scented water...and relax by candlelight...i'll probably have a toy with me...i wont be intent on release...it will be sexual therapy without orgasm...just teasing and stroking...a slow unwinding of all things...i will clear my mind of everything but the sensation of the water on my skin...the soft glow of candlelight...the water that moves with my hands...arms...legs...i will feel my soul sigh a blissful breath as it re-connects with me...all the soft edges of it slipping into place...

cg

sexual freedom or sexual danger?

a while back i engaged in a discussion with a friend regarding the film "looking for mr. goodbar" (if you haven't seen it, this stars a fabulous diane keaton...imo, probably one of her best films ever)...my friend advocated the film as an example of what happens when women engage in promiscuous behavior...while, i agree that the film, which is based on some actual events, does flash major warning signs to women who are questioning their sexual roles, i thought about what she said...that this film should be watched by women so that they may not stray to the "dark side" of sexual things...

this led to a discussion regarding the sexuality of women in general with one simple question: are women who choose to explore different parts of their sexuality in essence courting danger?

women are consistently labeled the "weaker sex"...no matter the strides over time that women will make, they will always be "softer", "sweeter", and, thus, bring out the more protective nature from others...when a woman makes a break from what is considered traditional or conventional, suddenly those protective urges dissipate..."she shouldnt have done that" say other women when a provocatively dressed female is taken advantage of...

and men can be the worst...they speak of a desire to see women embrace their sexuality...to be open and free...and how they love it!...until that woman falls from grace...when her private sexual freedoms are discovered...those men who cheered and encouraged the most...are the ones who suddenly become so quiet...

at work, my boss speaks of those who choose to live an unconventional lifestyle...i spoke of a waitress at one of my favorite restaurants who happened to be transitioning...she was sweet and kind and witty...my boss wrinkled her nose and said "oh, cg, i just cant understand why someone would do that to themselves! would you call it a him or a her or just an it?"...i quietly said "well, based on her long hair, simple makeup, and skirt, i would call her a "she" since a person most certainly could not be called an "it"...

the reality is that as much as we want people to embrace their individuality, we expect them to do so discretely...to not flaunt it in the faces of those who make the choice to not knock on the unknown doors of sexual curiosity...because if you knock on something, chances are it may fall on you...and whose fault would that be?...tsk tsk tsk....

even now, at times, i struggle myself with accepting parts of my own sexuality...with each passing day, though, i learn to question less and find the joy in the things i am curious about...good, bad, or indifferent it is who i am and how i learn about myself and others...is it sexual freedom or sexual danger that i court?...

hopefully the freedom, lol, but as someone once said "as soon as there is life, there is danger"...

cg

like a needle in a haystack

im always curious about how people manage to find my blog...so here is a current breakdown of searches and blogs that lead to me:

searches:

"he sucked my boobs he fucked me" ( i really dont know how bc when i clicked it i couldnt find me)

"i needed a cock between my legs"

"cum sicle" (i get this one a lot)

"sucked his cock"

and then a lot for just "avid curiosity" which is different



most of the people that come to my blog come from the same places all the time:

scott and emma (they really push the limits at times - not for the faint of heart! lol)

jake (facts and friction) (always hot, always sexy)

bdenied (great blogger buddy!)

dateable dork (she's a mess lol and ALWAYS funny...& guys, she posts pics from time to time!)

the first three have been the most consistent for at least a year i think...just interesting to find out where the pervs come from!

i saw this clip of an underwater blowjob from TBK last night...and while i found the woman's make up hideous the idea of giving a bj while submerged underwater was kinda interesting...i have to give the woman props because it had to be hard as hell since she was sucking cock, holding her breath under water, and trying to keep from floating up all at the same time...and keeping her eyes open...

but i will admit that now i am curious to try that...and the best part of the clip was how it looks when a man ejaculates under water...that was very erotic...

cg

pardon me, but your flight has been delayed

so date with sexy texan...delayed...ugh...so not fair...

and the minute i found out...it was like my well of pussy juices turned to sand...drier than bone dry...which is terrible! (and probably only short lived...i'll be wet and ready again in no time ;)

soldier boy has been calling...a LOT...speak of the devil, guess who's calling right now??...

i asked him if he's fucked anyone lately and he seemed a little shocked...then i asked him to tell me if it was good...how was she?...did he cum anywhere interesting?...after a while he could tell i was getting aroused...so he started to get aroused...

the more he told me about how they fucked and licked and sucked each other the more wet i became...my clit getting harder...

i came pretty hard and he did too...we had never talked about something like that before...it makes me even more turned on when i know i've turned someone on and they go and fuck someone else..

time for this curious girl to curl up under the covers and fall into the arms of morpheus...

cg

catch me if you can

i have always had very vivid dreams...for as long as i can remember...dreams that are like movies and sometimes i am myself and other times i am someone else, but i am watching myself play the part of someone else...hope you can follow that one!...

anyhow, many of my dreams often have recurring themes, which is pretty normal for most people i think...one of the themes is being chased...i have this intense bubble of excitement...like a laugh i can barely contain...in my dreams, i am not frightened...i know i will get caught...and therein lies the excitement...i am running and hiding and doing everything i can to avoid getting caught, but in my heart i know whoever is chasing me will catch up to me sooner or later...

i revel in knowing i lead such a merry chase...my heart pounds beneath my breast and my lips are spread in a soft, open smile as i breathe in and out...

most of the time in my dreams i am wearing something long soft and sheer...my hands hold up the long skirts and my hair is beginning to fall out of some loosely arranged updo...my skin feels cool the breeze licks my flesh and the sun is almost always setting...again, as if the chase is almost at an end...a time symbol of sorts...

bdenied suggested that perhaps i want to be desired and cherished...that's possible...

at this point, at least, i have never been caught in my dreams...i wake up feel light and breathless..as if i have spent the entire time running from someone or something...and filled with some buzzing energy...

cg

you are my soul mate

lol...a friend of mine said that to me the other day...he was struck by our easy compatibility and spoke of the possibility that we are soul mates...not in a "true love" kind of way...but in a sense that we share a deep connection and never do we have a boring conversation...

so, is it possible to have a soul mate that is platonic?...

is it possible to share a deep connection based on something inexplicable...that allows a complete acceptance for each others total being?..

it certainly is an entertaining thought!..

in other news, sexy texan sent me some sexy pics today...we have both been busy at work the last couple of days and he wondered if i had lost interest in him...of course i hadnt lost interest and i told him so...then he said the most fascinating words i always love to hear from men...

i want to please you...

there were more words in the email but that was all i needed to see...he described in detail how he wanted to please me...feeling me cum all over his fingers, hands, cock....i was instantly aroused and feeling warm and sexy all at the same time....

seeing his cock in those pics made me want to have him in my mouth once more...tasting him, sucking him, making him cum...

is it friday, yet??

cg

to blow or not to blow?

well, if you read the last couple of posts then you know the answer to that one..to blow...in a car, to be exact...

we had not planned on meeting...then he texts me...i will be on your side of town for business, will you be available to meet after?...i knew he meant meet for something sexual...this was no "hey, let's have coffee and chat!"...problem was i already had plans with friends and i was not about to bail on them for cock no matter how much i wanted it...there is this saying "bros before hos"...is there one like that for women like "chicks before dicks"?...lol...hahaha...i dont know if i would ever say that but that's pretty funny right there!...

he understood and i would txt when i was finished...except it was later than either of us expected so i just went home, took a shower and had just decided to run a quick errand to the grocery store when he texts me...did i still want to meet up...i wont lie, i got an instant throbbing between my legs...i couldnt believe what i was doing...i told little cg i was going to the store and would be back in a while (this isnt unusual, i do things at odd times)...

so in a dark parking lot under a tree we met...it was tense between us...the good kind of tension...he was very aroused...i could feel he wanted to grab me and just kiss me...he waited for me to make a move or say the word...i guess i hesitated a bit too long because he went straight for my shirt and pushed it aside so he could get to my breasts...earlier, i had shown him pics of two bras and i told him that the next time we met i would wear the one he wanted...he pushed my bra up and moaned when he touched them...he teased and pulled at my nipples before pulling them into his mouth...

his hand reached between my legs and rubbed me through my jeans...i felt hot all over...i pulled his head closer to my breasts and he bit my nipples...

he sat back after a while and pulled his cock out...he gave me that look again that said "i want to fuck you"...i immediately went down and put my mouth on his cock...guys, the sounds you make when a woman goes down on you...wow...it's awesome...his hand rested gently above my head as if he was unsure if i would mind or not...his hips lifted and we developed a rhythm where i would suck hard, my hand massaging his balls and he would push in and out and then i'd go down further and he would push harder and his cock would push against my throat a few times...

then i would lick, suck, and stroke his cock again and again...when i would come up for a breather, he would stroke me between my legs and suck on my nipples...again and again i would swallow his cock...tasting him precum...i wanted to push up his shirt and kiss his chest and lick around his nipples but for some reason i held back...

i dont know if he realized but a car nearby was watching us...it was hot...

we had talked about swallowing and i told him maybe next time so he didnt finish...we werent prepared with clean up and last time he came so much that he didnt want to ruin his pants since he had a bit of drive to get home...he wanted so badly to make me cum, he told me...

afterwards, when we parted (again, i could feel he wanted to kiss me, and i turned at the last second...we talked about that and i told him he needs to tell me what he wants/needs because i cannot read signals and i work better with words lol)...then we talked on the phone and said "it was so perfect...you were so perfect"....

i'm guessing he enjoyed it...immensely...later he told me that i essentially sucked his cock for 30 minutes off/on...it felt like only five min...lol...

next date is this week...hmm...wonder what will happen next...hehehe

cg

blowin' through the jasmine in my mind

what is it about the scent of jasmine that is so seductive, soft, and inviting...i just finished shaving and after i do that i like to put my fave balm...delicious jasmine on my nether lips...leaves them soft and scented...i will def use this for next date with sexy texan (which is this week)...damn, just thinking of that makes me aroused as all get out...

biguy was getting all hot and bothered over my last post...he's such a little perv! lol...and yes, hon, i know you read this and i know you were getting aroused...this is me calling you out on it!...

sexy texan has sent me some delicious pics that i have been masturbating to...he has such a delicious cock...cant wait to have it my mouth again...

in other news, we will call him "banker"...has just tried a little too hard...too cerebral in his seduction that it leaves me feeling...dry...literally...which is a shame because he is very attractive and very intelligent...but almost "businesslike" about it all...too casual as well...everything is about whether i find him attractive or not...and sometimes it isnt about that...well, perhaps on some level it is...anyhow, we have a date this week...but a part of me just wants to cancel and say, this isnt going to work...

i'll have to think about it a little more...

cg

a trip to the park

one of the last posts i mentioned a date where we had strong sexual chemistry...first of all, he was proof to me that initial reactions to ppl dont always factor into chemistry...i mean...i am very short...and he is very tall (which i knew from pics and what he'd said)...usually, i dont like guys to be more than ten or twelve inches taller than me...he surpassed that by a lot...but he was very nice, sweet, and around my age...

we met at a park and when i saw him i gave him a hug and when he leaned over so that i could do that, he was went right to my hip and kinda squeezed lightly...now, prior to this, we had exchanged emails, texts, and talked on the phone...i will say this...his voice...damn...that deep southern voice...just did things to me that he doesnt know about yet lol...and when that voice goes with that whole "southern gentleman" thing...if you dont know what im talking about, find one of them and you will totally understand! lol...

i did my usual avoid too much eye contact, talk too much thing until i settled down a bit...we walked around and just talked for a while...i could tell that he was trying to let me get to a comfort zone...he kept his distance and kinda watched me for cues...

it was raining a little so we went into his car...there wasnt anyone around but we were in a residential area so cars would come and go but with the time of day, weather, and where we were situated, we were a bit secluded...

i could tell by the look in his eyes that he was somewhat aroused...we had had discussions of semi-public acts of intimacy and i knew that he was thinking of that...i undid the top of my shirt and told him i was nervous...he laughed and showed me his hands and that he was nervous too...that his palms were sweaty and he wiped them on his pants...the minute his hands touched my breasts there was a very clear connection...his fingers were long and cool and eager to reach into my bra...his mouth latched onto my breast, pulling the nipple into his mouth with the bristles of his facial hair brushing against my breast...he wanted to touch my between my legs but i wasnt quite ready for that...

he eased my other breast out of the bra and teased my nipple with his lips, tongue, and teeth...i wanted to let go...but something made me hold back...i think it was watching cars drive past...

i wanted to see his cock...he pulled it out...and he was stroking it while playing with my breasts...he told me he really wanted to feel my lips on it but that he would understand if i didnt want to on the first time we met...i leaned over and flicked my tongue against it...he arched his back and raised his hips and moaned softly...

he asked me if i wanted to see him cum...and i did...so i wrapped my fingers around his cock and rubbed his precum over the head...when he came...it was hot, thick, and creamy...it came it giant spurts...all over my hand and on his pants (which he wasnt expecting, typically lands on his stomach and chest)...luckily, i happened to have a wet wipe thing in my purse and he had napkins in his car...i knew that we would meet again....and that next time i would most def be putting his cock in my mouth...

i am getting wet just thinking about it...

cg

comment moderation

ugh...i hate comment moderation bc it is just one more thing for me to do, but i kept getting all those stupid things on my comments...in general, most comments will be allowed to go through...whether you like me or not...just not the spam whatnot...

just fyi....

cg

updates, new ppl, and renewed energy

coming back here is like coming home to a house that has been vacant for years but has so many good memories...curtains are opened to welcome streams of pale yellow light that reveal floating dust particles that have been sitting and waiting for someone to cast them aside...floors are dusted and cleaned to showcase worn, but sturdy wood planks that creak in certain places but are eager for more visitors to admire their classic beauty...linens are washed and returned to their rightful places with a sigh that whispers, you've come home...you've come home...

that was awfully dramatic on my part, lol, but i do have a bit of the drama within me at times...

although i've been busy (who isnt??), i am determined to make regular posts on here again...i miss you guys (well, those of you that still pop in from time to time...come back, come back!)...

cg has been a busy girl and i have actually been meeting lots of new ppl...it all started with biguy...yep...he planted the seed in my brain without even knowing...we all out having drinks one night (cg, biguy, little cg) and he was talking about how he needed to meet more ppl...and then a friend of mine said how ive become this wretched little hermit (oh, i know, only the very dearest of friends will tell us such lovely things about ourselves!) that holes herself away night after night, week after week...you get the idea...

so...i made it a goal to shed that hermit skin (yes, i know it's a shell, but its more fun to say skin)...i wasnt/am not looking for a relationship, just see what adventures/experiences i get out of it all...

so let's go through the dates, shall we?

1) nice, long lunch...no real sexual energy/chemistry but great conversation...he wanted to continue the date at the movies...i declined (two hour lunch is plenty long enough for a first date, imo) and said i'd be up for it another time...then...i sent followup thank you email next day thanking for lunch, etc, very general...email didnt go through...sent again, same response...so cg sent brief reply via chat thanking for lunch, email issue, understanding that probably didnt want to meet again, no hard feelings...i get a response...his gf found the email (lol, i know, right??) exchanges, was upset, made him delete the acct, blah blah blah...whatever, it was funny, tho, right?

2) very very intelligent...dinner date...great connection...attractive...then comes the punchline...has a gf (this is going to be a recurring theme, lol) but would love to have arrangements with me if i am interested...i declined saying i really didnt want to have a cuckoo woman chasing me down and making my life crazy...but i said if he wanted to remain friends, i was cool with that...he said that was fine...

3) super young...early 20s...very very sexual and attractive...smart, funny, different in a good way...poor baby has so many life issues right now that anything more would be way too complicated and unnecessary...but we get along great and once he gets life together (which may or may not happen anytime soon) he'll be amazing for any woman...at this time, we are good friends...

4) another young'un (there is such a thing as too young, either mentally or biologically, and this one was it!)...waay too comfortable too fast...i felt like i was scolding him the entire time (dont slap my ass, dont touch me here/there)...and i totally gave that stern parent look more than once along with a few finger wags...it was not fun and i will NOT revisit that one again...not even when he went on and on about his sexual skillz...hell NO...

5)strong sexual chemistry...both meetings went very very well...talk centers mostly around sex...which is fine with me...he came on my hand the first night we met...nice...set to meet again end of next week...

6) another crazy intelligent one...he very much wants a fwb thing...i'm not sure...he's attractive, intelligent, etc...but maybe we are both too much of the same intellectually...also, #5 seems very intent on pursuing me but not too aggressively and i dont think i could handle sexual relations with more than one person at a time...but, we are set to meet again this week, so, we will see what develops...

7) female, totally friends only...she is very sweet and we seem to get along rather well...she is having some relationship issues that i dont know if i want to discuss here...she knows about my blog, but not sure what she would feel comfortable about me discussing...

and in the middle of all of the above...soldier boy kept calling and calling...wants to hook up again...he's older now (hell, i'd forgotten he'd aged lol) and seems calmer...but...idk...sure, he's got an big cock, but that isnt everything and his drama is too much...

also, that friend i mentioned with all the drama has more drama...i told him..for someone who (in his own words) has no friends, no job, no life, you sure have a LOT Of drama...his gf (who is with another guy) has left him (again), he is having lots of seizures, losing more relationships due to drama with the gf and other personal problems...i maintain a friendship bc i know i might be the only person who will listen and he knows it too...he needs help, he knows it...he needs to let go of the gf and focus on his health and his child...hopefully he will listen!

whew!...that was a lot of typing...i will update more tomorrow...

cg