you need a spanking

he said that with grin...my heart raced...a spanking?...that's certainly something that i have never been interested in, not really something that sparked my attention...few have tried and the results were always the same...no real reaction from me other than, are you done yet??...

there was something in the way he said it...the way he had grabbed me that night in the car...this time would be different...

he pulled me close, sitting on the edge of my bed...his lips hard then soft then hard against mine...in one movement he pulled off my bra and shirt...his hands rubbed on my skin...hot hard hands on my cool soft skin...his fingers pinched my nipples...instinctively i pulled back, but he held me close not letting me withdraw...

he stood up and leaned me forward onto the bed...his hands lifted my skirt...a few hard smacks to my ass startled me since he had been stroking me softly...he slid my skirt and panties off and i was fully exposed...

soft strokes on my bottom followed by several hard smacks...over and over...i felt hot and cool all over...hot where he touched...cool where my skin was exposed...

he turned me over and spread my legs, several slaps to my pussy...he slipped his fingers in between my pussy lips...i was shocked to find out i was very very wet...

he slid a finger inside and rubbed my clit...then suddenly slapped my pussy  again...it was startling and arousing at the same time...

this was going to be a long night...

cg

cum for me

he pushs the edge of my skirt up...his fingers tracing my inner thighs...i lean my head back...knowing how wet i am...he rubs me through my panties...

naughty girl...you're very wet...

then he smacks my pussy...

my eyes fly open...I am stunned, not expecting that sensation...his fingers push my panties aside, a single finger glides along the wet lips...instinctively, my hand attempts to brush his aside...

his other hand curls firmly, but not painfully, around my neck...his voice quiet, strong, unyielding...don't you push my hand away...

my hand flutters for a brief moment before slowly settling back down by my side...

good girl...good girl...

he slides a finger inside...I tense, not knowing what to expect but craving the sensation...

that's a very tight little pussy you have there....mmm...and wet...you're gonna cum for me, aren't you?...

is that soft whimpering really coming from me?...he rubs my clit...then pumps my sopping wet pussy...closer and closer...he pinches my nipple, hard, and it jolts me...

show me how you touch that little pussy...show me how you like it...my fingers reach down and stroke my clit...that's it, he says in that strong voice, cum for me...explosions all around...convulsions course through my body...his arms around me...

i want more...

cg

the dating pool - can you be my side chick?

i knew we would hit if off just fine because our texts and phone calls had such amazing energy...we met within 3 days of "meeting" online...he lived fairly close to me so setting up a time/place to meet was easy...from the first moment it was one of those clicks where you want to just skip the dinner and go right the kissing and making out part...

he came over on the second date...we played games (non-sexual, you pervs!) and talked and drank a little..the sexual tension was thick...heavy...it hung in the air between us...i kept waiting for him to make the first move...just reach out and kiss me, dammit!...he told me i was this mixture of innocence and sensual energy that was irresistible...well, then hurry the hell up and kiss me!...

the minute our lips locked we just couldn't stop...it had been a few months since i had any kind of action so the kissing was like water to the dry earth...lips...tongues...hands...his hands on my breasts....mouth on my nipples...licking, teasing, biting...

he leaned back and laughed...wow...you are a really really good kisser...

then he giggled...and covered his mouth while he was giggling...he honestly looked like a little kid in that moment...

the sexual energy moving through my body came to a screeching halt...

giggled...this guy is in his 30s...clearly very sexual...he told me that my kissing was intimidating...um...how so??...he just kept GIGGLING and said...it just is, i feel like i couldn't kiss you like you need to be kissed...

wtf...i just stared at him...dumbfounded...what the hell do you even say to that??...one minute my body was humming with sexual energy, wetness flooding my panties...the next...nada...

now i get we had been drinking...but i had one drink...i don't even know what he had...it was some months back...but the giggling thing, i'm not gonna lie...that was weird...

some intuition told me this wouldn't work...but surely the making out could go on?...maybe?...we tried again but i just couldn't get as into it...thankfully, he didn't seem to notice...

a few minutes later he was getting ready to leave...asking me to come over the next day...i'll cook for you...i'm a great cook...

sure, i said...i mean, we did get along and i didn't have anyone else on the radar...why not?...

promise? he asked...sure...

the next day...i didn't hear from him...i texted him a couple of times...i am NOT the type of woman to keep reaching out if i am not getting anything back from a man...i wont send message after message...where are you? are you there? did i do something wrong?...if a man doesn't respond after one or two messages within a day or so...he's not that into you...or he is and you're just his stress reliever for the time being..and i get that...so i usually take the hint, delete the number and move on down the road...

that evening he asked if he could talk to me...um...sure...nutshell: so my ex came by and we were fighting and yelling and she got evicted from her place and no one else will take her in so she will be staying with me, so unfortunately, i can't see you anymore...i'm really not happy about this because i really like you...

but we can still text and stuff...just not with my phone, we can use a messaging service because she checks my phone all the time, she's kinda crazy...but i'm still really into you...

hold up...really??...no.

no and no...i'm not side chick...and if she's crazy i sure as hell don't want to be remotely connected with him for sure...why you would want to be with someone who yells at you is beyond me...i knew when he giggled something was off!

stay tuned for the next dating pool story!

;)

cg

Long Absence

i haven't blogged in forever it seems...years, based on my last entry... i wasn't sure if i wanted to continue blogging and i was so busy with work and personal things (nothing bad, just life got busy) that i didn't blog...

i've involved myself recently with someone much more dominant and aggressive (sexually) than i have ever experienced...it's been very different than anything i've ever experienced...i've never been too interested in men than wanted to dominate me sexually...hello, you can't control me or make me do anything i don't want to do so don't bother trying that crap with me.

but his approach left me virtually unguarded...

brief conversations, innocuous topics...slow, slow, slow almost plodding pace during the "getting to know you" know...later, i would realize i was revealing much more about myself than he was about himself...normally, i can get a man to talk and talk and talk about himself...not this one...not that he has anything to hide...he is extremely open...but it's an openness that is bits here and there and always leaves me wanting to know more...normally, i am very direct when i cannot ascertain a man's interest...sometimes i get the "you're kind of intimidating" response...but from the very beginning, some weird instinct has made me pull back on that part...it doesn't feel like i am holding back from being myself...just feels like what i need to do at that moment...

i'm pretty independent...i don't need a man to drown me with attention...if a man pulls his attention away then i wave and move on...but i really really want this man's attention...in a "pay attention and touch me" kind of way...

i honestly don't know what he wants...something casual?...something more long term?...he's made a couple of comments that have me thinking he is looking for something longer term, but i genuinely don't know...

the other night...he wanted to meet me at his house...for a spanking...but i've never been there and i'm very hesitant...he senses my hesitancy...so he tells me to meet him some place, quickly, just throw on some clothes and meet for a kiss...

i'm instantly wet at the thought...i get up out of bed...it's not quite 11pm...i look in the mirror...my hair is a disheveled mess...no makeup...hurry, he says...something loose...loose??...what does that even mean?...as in not jeans??...i throw on a skirt and top...add some lip balm and blush just so I don't look too ghastly...

i'm headed out, i text...

he responds with a smiley face...

i feel a gush of wetness...i had gone to the bathroom before I left...wiped the wetness away...more came in its place...within minutes we meet in a parking lot...he walks up behind my car, startling me...he stands there, tall and full of male energy...i babble something about him startling me and laugh somewhat nervously...i barely exit the car when he pulls me up against him, his arms around me and presses his mouth against mine...i dont even have a moment to pause or think or respond...it is pure reaction...his arms are coiled around me tightly, pulling me closer...he leans back against my car and i go along with him...then the kiss becomes harder, more tongue...his hands grab and squeeze and spank my bottom...i was vaguely aware that we were doing this in a parking lot...that is still open and has cars...but it's also somewhat dimly lit...it's later at night...

i pull back...and the grin on his face...was so full of pleasure at my clearly stunned reaction...

i have dated men that were strong and dominant...but clearly nothing like this before...this powerful energy that seemed to just emanate and vibrate all around him...

i suggest we should get in my car where at least it's more private...the windows are tinted and the exterior lights are off...inside he reached for me almost immediately...hard, firm, fast...i didn't think i was capable of whimpering the way i did when he reached inside my bra and squeezed my nipple...hard...harder than i have ever felt...i tried to pull back...he held me close against him and nestled my head against his chest...whispering in my ear...

you can take it...you can do it...his voice deep and soft in my ear...

i press against him, almost as if that would give me the strength i needed to push through the intense sensation...almost as quickly as the pain started it subsided as he released my nipple...his hand stroking my hair softly...

good girl, he whispered...

he reached down between my legs...pushed up my skirt...i knew the wetness would be felt through my panties...i tensed for a few seconds...he slid a finger inside...we both heard the soft sucking sounds of his finger sliding in and out...he took out his finger and smelled me, tasting me on his finger...before sliding it inside my mouth...i felt drunk with sensation...everything was fast...slow...intense...deliberate...

he shifted between being aggressive and gentle...it was overwhelming to me...the soft touches on my arms, neck, breasts...the firm, painful touches on my nipples...pushing my head down on his cock...both of us cumming...me at least three times...after each orgasm, he'd pull me close...feeling my orgasm as it exploded through my body...

are you sure you don't want to come over? he asks with a grin...no sex this time, just more spanking and more kissing, his eyes smiled down on me...(you have no idea what a foot difference in height is like until you are standing right up next to that person)...i'm sure, i smile...

before he leaves...he pulls me hard against him...grabbing my hair...my mouth covered by his...his hand firmly squeezing and spanking my ass...

tongue like a wet noodle

that's what it felt like...a wet noodle slapping against my girly bits...and he bit my clit...about five seconds into it...i actually said, "dude, this isnt working, i'm not aroused anymore"...since when does oral sex not arouse??...in a strange way it was comedic...he told me to relax...that i needed to just enjoy it...

enjoy what exactly...i asked him when was the last time he had done this and he said it had been awhile...clearly...it had been a while for me as well, but damn, i KNOW how it is supposed to feel and that was not it...

he tried, oh how he tried...but to no avail...i finally sat up on my elbows and said, "when was the last time you had to seduce and woo a woman"...the crickets chirping in the background gave me the answer i needed...

let me show you, i said...then i kissed his neck...soft wet kisses...i kissed his jawline..around his lips...teasing his lips with my tongue...his nipples, his stomach, caressing his balls...it went on...he was moaning and jerking his hips...i asked him how he felt... "fucking fantastic" he said...

then i sat back and said EXACTLY how YOU are supposed to make ME feel...fucking fantastic...

do i really need to draw a map?...evidently!

cg

i've been wanting to ask you something...

he said to me the other day..."i wanted to ask you if you would be my girlfriend"...i closed my eyes thinking, how could i do this to this genuinely nice person...i am talking about that moment when you know someone feels something for you that you do not share...when you say to yourself "i have to be honest with this person and tell him what you are is sweet, kind, and gentle - what i am is tired, jaded, and apathetic"...

and i tried...kinda...

i've heard men say that women only want assholes or jerks...maybe that is true for some women...while i cannot speak for all women, i will say that guys who are "too" nice are like a sandwich without any meat...veggie only style sandwiches are completely overrated, btw...

when a guy makes me feel like a pervy old woman (and i'm not old, just in my thirties, thankyouverymuch!) that is preying on an innocent schoolboy, something is wrong (or is it right? i can never keep that straight!)

in the end, i did say i appreciated his thinking of me but i just am not in a position to be with anyone right now...there is some truth to that, work has had me super busy...

i've been masturbating like crazy lately...got a new toy, lelo soraya and i totally love it!...i've ejaculated several times with this thing...the kind of orgasms that leave you smiling and grinning like a fool...it's such a pretty pretty toy...i still have yet to fully explore this thing, but i just get all giddy thinking about it...i kept saying i would buy a jimmyjane but i ended up with lelo...so glad i did, but i do have my eye on two or three others...

oh, looks like it's all charged up and ready to go...what? what's that you say? it's time to play? oh, well, if you insist....

that's soraya, calling my name...;)

cg

EDIT: btw, i just saw the CUTEST leaf vibes - i am so getting one of those...

good dick

i was flipping through movies and came across one called "good dick"...it isnt a new film, it's a few years old...but the title struck me and so i checked out the trailer and decided what the hell..

in a nutshell: video store clerk falls for this girl that rents soft core porn on an almost daily basis...he follows her home and proceeds to seduce her in the strangest way...she insults him, calls him names, is demanding and rude...and yet, he seems to understand that this part has to happen...as if he knows/recognizes this is a hurdle she must overcome, they must overcome...

what struck me about the movie is how i could identify with her...i am not nearly so anti-social!...yet, that sense of distance, that aloof nature, that biting attitude and distrust...it would be easy to romanticize the concept of some guy in it for the long haul, willing to accept whatever the woman has to offer - even if it means he gets nothing, all for the purpose of seeing the rainbow that will be revealed after the storm...

you dont see men willing to brave that storm too often...women do...they brave that storm...the wind, the hail, the downpour of rain pelting like little pebble....objectively, i could ponder the thought that men perhaps have more sense of self-worth than women...or is it pride?...

in the film, the clerk accepted his object of affection scars, wounds, baggage and all...he did not seem too concerned if she accepted him for himself...he presented himself to her....for her...he pushed a little here and there and if she pushed back he stepped away...

my question after watching this film: how realistic is this? would a man truly put aside his needs, wants, and self in favor of helping a woman he barely knows to see and know her value to him?...

it wasnt a super powerful movie nor was it a super sexually thrilling film considering how much sex figures into the movie...but i liked it, i could feel a little of that distance (not for the same reasons, tho) and understand how even when you push everyone away...a little part of you wishes that one day, someone would push back...and not just walk away....

cg

VOD and toys

i could say that i got busy and forgot about the VOD (verb of the day) but honestly, i could not think of where to start...should i choose a verb the night before? should i choose it that morning? in the middle of the day?...so i decided i would choose it the day/night before...

the first VOD was clean...i cleaned, did laundry, and organized (life has been hectic and busy so my clean laundry has been sitting in two large baskets pleading with me to fold, iron, and put away...but i'm nobody's bitch! (not even my laundry!)...

tomorrow's VOD is inspire...i am going to see how many people i can inspire with my words/actions...i should keep a little journal...i want to be a muse...i want to be a catalyst of sorts...i want to help channel the creative energy that is spinning and humming just beneath the surface of others...

in other not-so-news, i have been toying with the thought of a new toy purchase...i have it narrowed down to two or three...i should bite the bullet (no pun intended!) and just get all three...some days i think that if i had a choice between a toy and man, i would take the toy!

i have had some interesting sexual connections lately (nothing physical at this time)...one involves a daddy/little girl fantasy play that just had me rockin' and reelin'...the arousal factor shot through the roof and the orgasms were amazing...i never thought that would have such an effect...

cg

the passage of time

time has a way of slipping away at times...as a little girl, the passage of time was something i could not fully comprehend...i knew that birthdays and holidays crept by once a year and that bedtime came too soon...it's been over a year since my last post (thank you so much for those of you that have continued to email me every so often - i dont check my email frequently enough, but thanks for emailing - it means a lot to me!)...in that year, i kept saying "i need to post! i need to check out my favorite bloggers/blogs!"...but, time has a way of slipping by...

over the past year:

1. i met some really interesting people

2. i met some other people that i hope to never meet again!

3. i made some bad choices

4. i made some better choices, too!

5. i took chances - that i would normally have never taken, but at least i can say i did

6. i learned that taking chances is really a good way to grow and can make you laugh at yourself when you wonder "what the hell was i thinking??"

7. sometimes, i am just not a very nice person

other than that, life is pretty peachy...well, as long as i let that peach set in a paper bag for a couple of days, should be alright!

men are just such fascinating creatures...they have continued to drive my crazy - and not in that really hot, sexy, fabulous way!...nope, they just do and say and behave so strangely...a friend of mine consistently says "you have the WORST taste in men!"...well, i thought they tasted just fine, thankyouverymuch!! ;)

oh, i know as women we can make life hell at times for you guys...but i marvel at how men can be so utterly, adorably, sensuously charming and have the ability to say things like "you intrigue me" "i am so in like with you right now" "i've never been so into a woman like i am into you"...

do you get those from books or something?...i'm not "man-hating", nope, just curious...why say those things?...do you really think we believe those?...i would prefer not to become a cynical, eye-rolling disbeliever of all things men say/do...but, alas!...i fear it is nearly too late!

*falls to a swoon*

anyhow, i decided to do something fun and silly to make the passage of this next year go by with a bit of humor and a bit of no-regret...i read somewhere about life being a verb (sounds like a damn progressive, self-help, helpmenotbesowhinyandunhappywithmylife kind of thing)..

so, i'm going to pick a random verb and try to "do" that verb three times in one day...hell, i thought it would be kinda fun and random to do...in fact, i didnt know i was going to do it until i started typing and the idea popped into my head...fancy that!...

any verb suggestions?...

i think i might just cut them up into index cards or papers or some shit like that and randomly draw one out so i know what my focus verb will be...

i start tomorrow...the verb...

procrastinate..

;)

cg

big daddy and the sexy texan

that's what he calls himself...sometimes...he pushed too hard last time...was pushing too hard again this time around...but now it seems he's gone and figured out just how the hell to get under my skin without making me roll my eyes or shoo him off...he's fired up, all right, and looking to fire me up as well...

bdenied and the missus call him boomerang, and that was what i was going to call him but i think BD will suit him just fine...

i feel him trying to "train" me or "groom" me...try is the key word...although a part of me may play along because of the novelty of it...

i had a date with ST the other day but the stars were misaligned and i had to cancel..he made up for it by sending me a sexy vid of him jerking off to some pics i'd sent him earlier that day...his cum came out so thick and milky...i cant wait to feel it in my mouth again...

these two men couldnt be any more different...they are about fifteen years apart...BD is the older one...so much self-confidence (arrogance, really) and used to getting his way always...ST is younger, closer to my age, but younger...quieter, less showy...let's me take the lead and asks before doing anything "can i kiss you?" "can i touch your breasts?" "can i please stick my finger inside you?"....there is this amazing sweetness and innocence that surrounds him...he would laugh if i told him that...

BD doesnt ask...at least not like ST would ask...he asks things like "would you slide down to your knees for me, darlin?" "why don't you open your lips so i can see how my cock looks inside your mouth?"...really, they are more commands...but done in a certain way...

i get something different out of each one...ST is dying for me to send him a vid or pic of me going down on BD (or anyone, he says)...he thinks it is so erotic...he also wants to send me vid/pics of himself with other women...

i get dizzy thinking about it all...i dont know if i could choose between both...i have the upper hand with one, but not so much with the other...having both makes it possible for me to not have to make any choices...

at least for now...

cg

the return

i was younger then...in years, yes, but also in the way i saw the world and how my little piece of the puzzle would one day fit into it...i was more worried with where i would fit rather than how...he was older and strong...too strong...it was like inhaling a scent that was overpowering and seductive at the same time...i couldnt breathe...i felt constricted and frantic...

he wanted to control me, he said...but in those oh, so, subtle ways...but i would have none of it...he demanded of me, i resisted...he followed me, i ran...the harder he pursued, the faster i fled...

he became hurt and angry with me...he accused me of leading him on a merry chase, which i likely was...he wanted to smother me with sexual energy and whatever else he had left to give me...it was like being burned, it was too much...

now he's back...years later...and he still wants me...im older now, wiser in many ways...i cannot tell what he seeks this time...i havent forgotten you, he said...

this time...i am so very curious...

this time...i wonder if i will stop running...

cg

a sight to see

what would you do if you invited a gorgeous young woman into your life to seduce your husband in hopes of finding out if he has been sharing his kibbles and bits with other women?...would you sleep with her after she tells you that she's slept with your husband?...well, that is exactly what happens in this movie i saw the other day called chloe with julianne moore and amanda seyfried

this isnt really a movie review just me thinking out loud...overall, i liked the film and the whole fatal attraction theme works pretty well...i had a few issues with some aspects of the film, but i wont discuss them here bc i dont want to spoil it for those of you who havent seen it!

seriously, though, in fantasy, the idea that a woman suspects her husband is cheating and then hires a call girl to present herself to the man and then gets aroused by hearing all the details that went on between the girl and the husband, well, its pretty erotic and very believable...im sure the woman would be confused by those aroused feelings and the feeling that she is losing her husband to other women...

if we take this fantasy a step further...and the woman continues to pay the young call girl to spend time with the husband and then gradually develops a physical relationship with the young girl...what would happen next?....would the husband find out and also get aroused?...would the girl and the woman begin to see each other exclusively?...

people enjoy hearing about sexual encounters..it is why they look online to find those naughty stories so they can imagine they are there in the room ...watching...maybe through a hidden corner or closet...or through a discreetly placed camera...possibly touching themselves as they watch the events unfold...

somehow, in this scenario, i think that something would be lost if the ultimate fantasy of the wife, call girl and husband all together played out...for those that enjoy that mystery and secrecy, those would, in a sense, be gone....but there would always be that lingering thought of...what if....that would add to the anticipation and sexual hum...

perhaps the reality of it...or the possibility that it could be real is what draws people to fantasies such as this one...there is a fine line for many people as to what is a fantasy and what fantasies can become reality...when those fantasies become reality, those fantasies that walk that very fine line, people stretch the concept of who they are, at least, who they thought they were...and coming face to fact with that much raw honesty can prove toxic for some...

you know what they say, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger...perhaps the same can be said here...when entering the cave of truth, if you dont flinch and face it full-force, will it make you stronger?...will it blow away everything you thought you knew?...or will it blow away in a cloud of ash leaving you lost and roaming the world in disillusion for eternity?...

in any case, check out the film, its not bad, and there is a sex scene with julianne moore and amanda seyfried!

cg

all's right with the world

let's begin by shooing "whiny girl" out the door:

*takes broom and sweeps out mopey, whiny girl and gives her a firm swat on the bottom with the straw end of the broom - slams door*

*opens door again and shouts, "yeah, and dont come back here anymore! you whine too much!"

lol...seriously, men have NO idea how hormones can make women wacky...its like living with a split personality at times..fo' sho'..i have a couple of other things on my mind that i have told a couple of you about, nothing major, just little things that get the hamster rolling around...yeah, he rolls around...laughing at me...nasty little bugger...

so i talked with the young'un and he basically said "i love that you are always turned on, i just dont know what to do with you"...

bdenied and his wife had a good laugh over that one!

but here's something funny: i went to purchase a new toy and my cc was declined..i thought i entered something wrong but it didnt go through...i thought...wow, and i cant even call the cc company and ask what's up bc that would be an awkward convo:

person: hello, thank you for calling abc cc company, how can i help today?

me: yes, i was just trying to make an online purchase and it was declined. i pay off the balance regularly so i know it isnt an issue of reaching the limit.

person: hmm, well let's see if we can find out the problem. can you tell me what you were trying to purchase?

me: um, a vibrator...

person: ...


honestly, i am sure these people see and hear about all kinds of purchases people make...lol...but i certainly didnt want to try and see how that would go!...perhaps its just as well, because i really wanted this other one anyhow, but it was a bit more expensive...odd how the more expensive transaction went through! lol

all's well that ends well!...

cg

confused

before i begin this post, i wanted to share a big "thank you" to those of you who have been so supportive of me and my curiosities...some of you have been following my blog for a long time, others more recently...but thank you! (you guys know who you are :)

anyhow, two things happened tonight that kinda sorta inflicted a little self-doubt...someone said that i am too intimidating because i am aroused often...too horny, he said...

wow...really?...i never thought of myself as being so horny that i am that overwhelming...i mean, yes, there are times when i can orgasm a lot and often...and other times not so much...like merlin said about the cycles of women and sexual arousal...

i will admit that i was just a tiny bit embarrassed...dont ask why, it was just a quick reaction...i have never acted like i was about to just throw him down and force-fuck him...he is a lot bigger than i am, so i dont know where he would think that...

then, not 30 minutes after that i am talking to a friend...he knows about some of my recent experiences that i've posted on here and he flat out said he didnt like it...he said "i hope you go through this phase quickly"...then he called me a slut, to which i replied, thank you...he laughed it off but i was still bothered...not by the fact that he called me a slut, but the tone and disgust i could hear in his voice...

he asked later if i was mad...and i said no, not mad, disappointed...he asked why didnt i argue back or disagree...what would be the point?...he has his opinions and i will not try to sway him...i think it bothered me because he is a good friend and i would have expected something more...

i explained that my sexual curiosities are my own and have nothing to do with him...he agreed and i could tell he was unaware he had let me down...as a friend, i dont expect him to agree with me and to jump for joy over every decision i make...but they are mine to make, good, bad, or indifferent, and the judgment that he saw fit to pass was hurtful because he is a friend...

he knows i am disappointed...i am confused and hurt to a degree...perhaps it is the feeling of being "naked" and open...i try really really hard not to judge others...i dont know the ins and outs of the lives they lead...im not perfect, i miss the mark at times...and i am okay with that...

i just have to remember that the world wont accept me the way i am...at least not all of me...which is why i am thankful that i do have such a good support here...

i hope you guys know how much i enjoy having you around to tease, chat, and engage in meaningless, er, meaningful conversation...

thank you.

cg

a mouthful

he watched as i unbuttoned each of the three buttons on my blouse...his scent slithered slowly into my nostrils, racing unfiltered to my brain...i wanted to breathe it in, let in linger and savor it...i pulled my open shirt past my shoulders, exposing the soft flesh of my breasts, pale against the black bra i wore...

he reached down and pulled them out from within the confines of the dark material and latched onto one of my nipples with his mouth...he suckled them slowly, firmly taking them into his mouth using his lips, teeth, and tongue...

he reached down and slipped his hand down my leg and up under my skirt...his cool fingers slid along my thighs while his mouth continued ravaging my breasts...after a while, he pulled back and then i removed my bra enjoying the feel of having my breasts sway and move freely...

his cock lay before me...my tongue circled the head, tasting his precum...it was saltier than last time...we soon settled into a rhythm...his hands on my head, his cock slipping in and out of my mouth, at times pushing against the back of my throat...

i sat back and he reached once again under my skirt...he rubbed along my panty-covered pussy...his fingers pulled the black fabric aside and he probed with his long cool fingers, searching for the hot warmth that lay hidden...slowly, i whispered, his over-eager fingers pushed too quickly at first, excited by all the wetness...he gently eased a finger inside and our ears soon heard the soft sucking sounds of his fingers slipping in and out of my pussy...back and forth i moved with the thrusting of his hand...i could feel the wetness oozing out of me...

once again i was on my knees, his cock in my mouth, my hands on his balls...i wanted to make him cum...faster he thrust his cock into my mouth...until he whispered those three little words "im gonna cum"...thick cum filled the back of my throat and i nearly gagged from lack of air and all the cum filling my throat, but i recovered quickly and in one quick swallow it was all gone...

cg

sex bomb

yesterday, i came four times...i was extremely hormonal...men have no idea what women go through!...it's like being the seven dwarfs all at the same time...i think they left out the 8th one...horny...

when i told him this was his response:

"man, you're a little sex bomb! i love it!"

we really need to fix this issue with the conflicting schedules...fast

cg

the power of the pussy

one of the things i enjoy about blogging are some of the interesting people i "meet" via email...sometimes, these people drift in for a while and others will linger on....anyhow, today's post was plucked out of the in/outbox:

him: Oh come on, you can't make me believe you're what, 30-something and you haven't yet come to terms with the fact that you have to manage men? You're just in denial, that's all, hoping gravity doesn't exist, or E does not equal MC squared.


me:have you ever been a woman trying to manage men?...think about that for just a second...

on that note...last night i sent a naughty text to a man...talking about how i was using one of my toys...he said, damn, now im all hard...he wanted to call..i said...no, gn!....to which he replied "damn!...i'll get you back!"....

no you wont, i texted...why not?, he queried...because you dont have the pussy.

he's young...he has so much to learn...



him: Damn, you make a good point there. Man has to have the vitamin P, else the world stops. Okay, you win.

me: the power pussy...all holy and powerful...more than a vessel...it is like a magical chalice of goodness...there are even the rare purity pussies...pussies so pure that they can bring a man back from the brink of death..

of course, those are only rumors...

damn, that was funny, that might make a funny post lol


him: lmao, you're right, that would make a good post. Call it the holy grail of pussies. And we men will send thousands of ships across the sea just to fight and win one. Yes, this young man of yours has a lot to learn about the power between your legs.

its been a long tough week for me...work is kickin' my ass!...i'll work a "real" post for tomorrow or even later tonight if i can stay awake that long lol...

power to the pussy!

cg

making out in the car

i want to see you, he said to me...

i cant...i have plans...

please...i need to see you...i can meet you anywhere, he says...

no, i am already on the way home and i have plans with friends...

please, he begs me, i have been waiting for you...i want you...now...give me 20 minutes...just to see you...nothing else...unless you want it...

i hesitated...what was i thinking?....he was around the corner...i had only to say the words and he would be here...but i also had people coming over soon...

he was there in less than a minute...i pulled on my jeans and took my hair down from its loose bun...barefoot i made my way outside...i slid into the seat and he reached for me immediately...our lips touched...i tasted his tongue...he pushed my shirt aside and pulled out my breasts...he latched on and tugged with his tongue and lips...his fingers pressing between my legs...

he pulled out his cock...he wanted me to taste it...but i couldnt...not when i knew any minute someone would arrive...i could explain a visitor, but my head in the visitor's lap?...everyone would want to know...how did you meet?...who is he?...why didnt you tell us?...

i played with it...teasing him...i wanted to taste it so bad...but i wouldnt...i wanted him to want it more...he played with my nipples...making me so wet....

he left...we both had to go....it was short...but enough of a taste to make us want more...

cg

from the outbox

this was pulled from an email exchange between myself and one of my blogger buddies (he thought it would be a good post!):


my email:

oh he is so deliciously innocent i feel like a vampire ready to suck him dry!...he wanted to come over last night...i told him no...i do not live alone and these things have their time...you cannot rush into things...you must savor them and let the anticipation build a bit...you do not gulp a glass of champagne...you sip..let the fizzy bubbles tickle your tongue and the back of your throat...you savor the cool sweetness and let a soft smile play upon your lips...and maybe...at the bottom of the glass...there is a sliver of a strawberry, heavy with that cool, fizzy sweetness waiting to burst inside your mouth...

"im a terrible lover" he says "but i love going down on a woman...i could do it all day and not cum...because i want her to cum over and over..."

terrible?...because he would cum first...he says this with a chuckle...he isnt bitter or bothered...it simply is and he doesnt mind because in his words "it is all about making the woman cum"...

i asked him "what if i told you that you could have orgasms without ejaculating?"...he laughed and said it wasnt possible...oh, but it is, i said...he wants to know...how to do it...it takes time, i said...time and patience...if he is looking for a quick answer he wont find it, i said, but if he wants a journey of discovering himself through sex and intimacy, then that is a path that he may want to consider...

we would have time this weekend but i have other commitments...plus...he can wait...it will be good for you to wait, i told him...i could feel him grinning that boyish grin of his...okay... he said...i can wait!...just tell me what to do!

yes, i feel like a vampire prepping the young virgin for his fall into the dark embrace...

what a rush...

the response:

Cg, that would make a tremendous post...Very sensual and very much an erotic story and also a very good one for the girl being in charge. You tell him you have a male friend (me) who personally knows it is possible to orgasm without ejaculating....and when it happens it is so much fun....there are mystics in India who go their whole lives without spilling their seed but orgasm almost on self demand....

The journey is often the better part of the trip...The destination is always more disappointing than the travel flyer suggests....Too have a woman control the orgasm and the ejaculation is one of life's true pleasures.....that is why I love it when my wife brings me to the edge and just keeps me there...she does it as much for her pleasure...at first she thought she was depriving me of something...Now she knows she deprives me of the eternal tease if she lets me cum......

Yes my lovely vampire, suck the virginity right out of him....deny him what he wants and you will have him eating from your hand......his dick will be your dick...Your toy to take out and play with whenever you want......thanks for sharing with me..

yep, i guess that was a nice post after all!

(you really do encounter the neatest people through blogging!)

cg

i cant believe its not butter!

i was looking for a new lube to use (the one i was using was causing this burning for like a day or so ...tried it a few times, same feeling...but when i didnt use it and used my own "natural" lube, i was fine)...anyhow, i am leery of commercial lubes, so in my searches i came across boy butter...

...boy...butter...

now doesnt THAT sound someone's special gfwb..."yeah, that's tom in this picture...he's my boy butter...he ALWAYS gets me going!"

it looks interesting for sure, and i think i might try some out if only to say i have...i bet it'd make an awesome bride-to-be gift, lol...

honestly, i think i might try coconut oil/butter as well (that is how i found boy butter in the first place!)...anyone ever tried it?...

cg