sexual freedom or sexual danger?

a while back i engaged in a discussion with a friend regarding the film "looking for mr. goodbar" (if you haven't seen it, this stars a fabulous diane keaton...imo, probably one of her best films ever)...my friend advocated the film as an example of what happens when women engage in promiscuous behavior...while, i agree that the film, which is based on some actual events, does flash major warning signs to women who are questioning their sexual roles, i thought about what she said...that this film should be watched by women so that they may not stray to the "dark side" of sexual things...

this led to a discussion regarding the sexuality of women in general with one simple question: are women who choose to explore different parts of their sexuality in essence courting danger?

women are consistently labeled the "weaker sex"...no matter the strides over time that women will make, they will always be "softer", "sweeter", and, thus, bring out the more protective nature from others...when a woman makes a break from what is considered traditional or conventional, suddenly those protective urges dissipate..."she shouldnt have done that" say other women when a provocatively dressed female is taken advantage of...

and men can be the worst...they speak of a desire to see women embrace their sexuality...to be open and free...and how they love it!...until that woman falls from grace...when her private sexual freedoms are discovered...those men who cheered and encouraged the most...are the ones who suddenly become so quiet...

at work, my boss speaks of those who choose to live an unconventional lifestyle...i spoke of a waitress at one of my favorite restaurants who happened to be transitioning...she was sweet and kind and witty...my boss wrinkled her nose and said "oh, cg, i just cant understand why someone would do that to themselves! would you call it a him or a her or just an it?"...i quietly said "well, based on her long hair, simple makeup, and skirt, i would call her a "she" since a person most certainly could not be called an "it"...

the reality is that as much as we want people to embrace their individuality, we expect them to do so discretely...to not flaunt it in the faces of those who make the choice to not knock on the unknown doors of sexual curiosity...because if you knock on something, chances are it may fall on you...and whose fault would that be?...tsk tsk tsk....

even now, at times, i struggle myself with accepting parts of my own sexuality...with each passing day, though, i learn to question less and find the joy in the things i am curious about...good, bad, or indifferent it is who i am and how i learn about myself and others...is it sexual freedom or sexual danger that i court?...

hopefully the freedom, lol, but as someone once said "as soon as there is life, there is danger"...

cg

like a needle in a haystack

im always curious about how people manage to find my blog...so here is a current breakdown of searches and blogs that lead to me:

searches:

"he sucked my boobs he fucked me" ( i really dont know how bc when i clicked it i couldnt find me)

"i needed a cock between my legs"

"cum sicle" (i get this one a lot)

"sucked his cock"

and then a lot for just "avid curiosity" which is different



most of the people that come to my blog come from the same places all the time:

scott and emma (they really push the limits at times - not for the faint of heart! lol)

jake (facts and friction) (always hot, always sexy)

bdenied (great blogger buddy!)

dateable dork (she's a mess lol and ALWAYS funny...& guys, she posts pics from time to time!)

the first three have been the most consistent for at least a year i think...just interesting to find out where the pervs come from!

i saw this clip of an underwater blowjob from TBK last night...and while i found the woman's make up hideous the idea of giving a bj while submerged underwater was kinda interesting...i have to give the woman props because it had to be hard as hell since she was sucking cock, holding her breath under water, and trying to keep from floating up all at the same time...and keeping her eyes open...

but i will admit that now i am curious to try that...and the best part of the clip was how it looks when a man ejaculates under water...that was very erotic...

cg

pardon me, but your flight has been delayed

so date with sexy texan...delayed...ugh...so not fair...

and the minute i found out...it was like my well of pussy juices turned to sand...drier than bone dry...which is terrible! (and probably only short lived...i'll be wet and ready again in no time ;)

soldier boy has been calling...a LOT...speak of the devil, guess who's calling right now??...

i asked him if he's fucked anyone lately and he seemed a little shocked...then i asked him to tell me if it was good...how was she?...did he cum anywhere interesting?...after a while he could tell i was getting aroused...so he started to get aroused...

the more he told me about how they fucked and licked and sucked each other the more wet i became...my clit getting harder...

i came pretty hard and he did too...we had never talked about something like that before...it makes me even more turned on when i know i've turned someone on and they go and fuck someone else..

time for this curious girl to curl up under the covers and fall into the arms of morpheus...

cg

catch me if you can

i have always had very vivid dreams...for as long as i can remember...dreams that are like movies and sometimes i am myself and other times i am someone else, but i am watching myself play the part of someone else...hope you can follow that one!...

anyhow, many of my dreams often have recurring themes, which is pretty normal for most people i think...one of the themes is being chased...i have this intense bubble of excitement...like a laugh i can barely contain...in my dreams, i am not frightened...i know i will get caught...and therein lies the excitement...i am running and hiding and doing everything i can to avoid getting caught, but in my heart i know whoever is chasing me will catch up to me sooner or later...

i revel in knowing i lead such a merry chase...my heart pounds beneath my breast and my lips are spread in a soft, open smile as i breathe in and out...

most of the time in my dreams i am wearing something long soft and sheer...my hands hold up the long skirts and my hair is beginning to fall out of some loosely arranged updo...my skin feels cool the breeze licks my flesh and the sun is almost always setting...again, as if the chase is almost at an end...a time symbol of sorts...

bdenied suggested that perhaps i want to be desired and cherished...that's possible...

at this point, at least, i have never been caught in my dreams...i wake up feel light and breathless..as if i have spent the entire time running from someone or something...and filled with some buzzing energy...

cg

you are my soul mate

lol...a friend of mine said that to me the other day...he was struck by our easy compatibility and spoke of the possibility that we are soul mates...not in a "true love" kind of way...but in a sense that we share a deep connection and never do we have a boring conversation...

so, is it possible to have a soul mate that is platonic?...

is it possible to share a deep connection based on something inexplicable...that allows a complete acceptance for each others total being?..

it certainly is an entertaining thought!..

in other news, sexy texan sent me some sexy pics today...we have both been busy at work the last couple of days and he wondered if i had lost interest in him...of course i hadnt lost interest and i told him so...then he said the most fascinating words i always love to hear from men...

i want to please you...

there were more words in the email but that was all i needed to see...he described in detail how he wanted to please me...feeling me cum all over his fingers, hands, cock....i was instantly aroused and feeling warm and sexy all at the same time....

seeing his cock in those pics made me want to have him in my mouth once more...tasting him, sucking him, making him cum...

is it friday, yet??

cg

to blow or not to blow?

well, if you read the last couple of posts then you know the answer to that one..to blow...in a car, to be exact...

we had not planned on meeting...then he texts me...i will be on your side of town for business, will you be available to meet after?...i knew he meant meet for something sexual...this was no "hey, let's have coffee and chat!"...problem was i already had plans with friends and i was not about to bail on them for cock no matter how much i wanted it...there is this saying "bros before hos"...is there one like that for women like "chicks before dicks"?...lol...hahaha...i dont know if i would ever say that but that's pretty funny right there!...

he understood and i would txt when i was finished...except it was later than either of us expected so i just went home, took a shower and had just decided to run a quick errand to the grocery store when he texts me...did i still want to meet up...i wont lie, i got an instant throbbing between my legs...i couldnt believe what i was doing...i told little cg i was going to the store and would be back in a while (this isnt unusual, i do things at odd times)...

so in a dark parking lot under a tree we met...it was tense between us...the good kind of tension...he was very aroused...i could feel he wanted to grab me and just kiss me...he waited for me to make a move or say the word...i guess i hesitated a bit too long because he went straight for my shirt and pushed it aside so he could get to my breasts...earlier, i had shown him pics of two bras and i told him that the next time we met i would wear the one he wanted...he pushed my bra up and moaned when he touched them...he teased and pulled at my nipples before pulling them into his mouth...

his hand reached between my legs and rubbed me through my jeans...i felt hot all over...i pulled his head closer to my breasts and he bit my nipples...

he sat back after a while and pulled his cock out...he gave me that look again that said "i want to fuck you"...i immediately went down and put my mouth on his cock...guys, the sounds you make when a woman goes down on you...wow...it's awesome...his hand rested gently above my head as if he was unsure if i would mind or not...his hips lifted and we developed a rhythm where i would suck hard, my hand massaging his balls and he would push in and out and then i'd go down further and he would push harder and his cock would push against my throat a few times...

then i would lick, suck, and stroke his cock again and again...when i would come up for a breather, he would stroke me between my legs and suck on my nipples...again and again i would swallow his cock...tasting him precum...i wanted to push up his shirt and kiss his chest and lick around his nipples but for some reason i held back...

i dont know if he realized but a car nearby was watching us...it was hot...

we had talked about swallowing and i told him maybe next time so he didnt finish...we werent prepared with clean up and last time he came so much that he didnt want to ruin his pants since he had a bit of drive to get home...he wanted so badly to make me cum, he told me...

afterwards, when we parted (again, i could feel he wanted to kiss me, and i turned at the last second...we talked about that and i told him he needs to tell me what he wants/needs because i cannot read signals and i work better with words lol)...then we talked on the phone and said "it was so perfect...you were so perfect"....

i'm guessing he enjoyed it...immensely...later he told me that i essentially sucked his cock for 30 minutes off/on...it felt like only five min...lol...

next date is this week...hmm...wonder what will happen next...hehehe

cg

blowin' through the jasmine in my mind

what is it about the scent of jasmine that is so seductive, soft, and inviting...i just finished shaving and after i do that i like to put my fave balm...delicious jasmine on my nether lips...leaves them soft and scented...i will def use this for next date with sexy texan (which is this week)...damn, just thinking of that makes me aroused as all get out...

biguy was getting all hot and bothered over my last post...he's such a little perv! lol...and yes, hon, i know you read this and i know you were getting aroused...this is me calling you out on it!...

sexy texan has sent me some delicious pics that i have been masturbating to...he has such a delicious cock...cant wait to have it my mouth again...

in other news, we will call him "banker"...has just tried a little too hard...too cerebral in his seduction that it leaves me feeling...dry...literally...which is a shame because he is very attractive and very intelligent...but almost "businesslike" about it all...too casual as well...everything is about whether i find him attractive or not...and sometimes it isnt about that...well, perhaps on some level it is...anyhow, we have a date this week...but a part of me just wants to cancel and say, this isnt going to work...

i'll have to think about it a little more...

cg