that's what he calls himself...sometimes...he pushed too hard last time...was pushing too hard again this time around...but now it seems he's gone and figured out just how the hell to get under my skin without making me roll my eyes or shoo him off...he's fired up, all right, and looking to fire me up as well...
bdenied and the missus call him boomerang, and that was what i was going to call him but i think BD will suit him just fine...
i feel him trying to "train" me or "groom" me...try is the key word...although a part of me may play along because of the novelty of it...
i had a date with ST the other day but the stars were misaligned and i had to cancel..he made up for it by sending me a sexy vid of him jerking off to some pics i'd sent him earlier that day...his cum came out so thick and milky...i cant wait to feel it in my mouth again...
these two men couldnt be any more different...they are about fifteen years apart...BD is the older one...so much self-confidence (arrogance, really) and used to getting his way always...ST is younger, closer to my age, but younger...quieter, less showy...let's me take the lead and asks before doing anything "can i kiss you?" "can i touch your breasts?" "can i please stick my finger inside you?"....there is this amazing sweetness and innocence that surrounds him...he would laugh if i told him that...
BD doesnt ask...at least not like ST would ask...he asks things like "would you slide down to your knees for me, darlin?" "why don't you open your lips so i can see how my cock looks inside your mouth?"...really, they are more commands...but done in a certain way...
i get something different out of each one...ST is dying for me to send him a vid or pic of me going down on BD (or anyone, he says)...he thinks it is so erotic...he also wants to send me vid/pics of himself with other women...
i get dizzy thinking about it all...i dont know if i could choose between both...i have the upper hand with one, but not so much with the other...having both makes it possible for me to not have to make any choices...
at least for now...
cg
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
the return
i was younger then...in years, yes, but also in the way i saw the world and how my little piece of the puzzle would one day fit into it...i was more worried with where i would fit rather than how...he was older and strong...too strong...it was like inhaling a scent that was overpowering and seductive at the same time...i couldnt breathe...i felt constricted and frantic...
he wanted to control me, he said...but in those oh, so, subtle ways...but i would have none of it...he demanded of me, i resisted...he followed me, i ran...the harder he pursued, the faster i fled...
he became hurt and angry with me...he accused me of leading him on a merry chase, which i likely was...he wanted to smother me with sexual energy and whatever else he had left to give me...it was like being burned, it was too much...
now he's back...years later...and he still wants me...im older now, wiser in many ways...i cannot tell what he seeks this time...i havent forgotten you, he said...
this time...i am so very curious...
this time...i wonder if i will stop running...
cg
he wanted to control me, he said...but in those oh, so, subtle ways...but i would have none of it...he demanded of me, i resisted...he followed me, i ran...the harder he pursued, the faster i fled...
he became hurt and angry with me...he accused me of leading him on a merry chase, which i likely was...he wanted to smother me with sexual energy and whatever else he had left to give me...it was like being burned, it was too much...
now he's back...years later...and he still wants me...im older now, wiser in many ways...i cannot tell what he seeks this time...i havent forgotten you, he said...
this time...i am so very curious...
this time...i wonder if i will stop running...
cg
a sight to see
what would you do if you invited a gorgeous young woman into your life to seduce your husband in hopes of finding out if he has been sharing his kibbles and bits with other women?...would you sleep with her after she tells you that she's slept with your husband?...well, that is exactly what happens in this movie i saw the other day called chloe with julianne moore and amanda seyfried
this isnt really a movie review just me thinking out loud...overall, i liked the film and the whole fatal attraction theme works pretty well...i had a few issues with some aspects of the film, but i wont discuss them here bc i dont want to spoil it for those of you who havent seen it!
seriously, though, in fantasy, the idea that a woman suspects her husband is cheating and then hires a call girl to present herself to the man and then gets aroused by hearing all the details that went on between the girl and the husband, well, its pretty erotic and very believable...im sure the woman would be confused by those aroused feelings and the feeling that she is losing her husband to other women...
if we take this fantasy a step further...and the woman continues to pay the young call girl to spend time with the husband and then gradually develops a physical relationship with the young girl...what would happen next?....would the husband find out and also get aroused?...would the girl and the woman begin to see each other exclusively?...
people enjoy hearing about sexual encounters..it is why they look online to find those naughty stories so they can imagine they are there in the room ...watching...maybe through a hidden corner or closet...or through a discreetly placed camera...possibly touching themselves as they watch the events unfold...
somehow, in this scenario, i think that something would be lost if the ultimate fantasy of the wife, call girl and husband all together played out...for those that enjoy that mystery and secrecy, those would, in a sense, be gone....but there would always be that lingering thought of...what if....that would add to the anticipation and sexual hum...
perhaps the reality of it...or the possibility that it could be real is what draws people to fantasies such as this one...there is a fine line for many people as to what is a fantasy and what fantasies can become reality...when those fantasies become reality, those fantasies that walk that very fine line, people stretch the concept of who they are, at least, who they thought they were...and coming face to fact with that much raw honesty can prove toxic for some...
you know what they say, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger...perhaps the same can be said here...when entering the cave of truth, if you dont flinch and face it full-force, will it make you stronger?...will it blow away everything you thought you knew?...or will it blow away in a cloud of ash leaving you lost and roaming the world in disillusion for eternity?...
in any case, check out the film, its not bad, and there is a sex scene with julianne moore and amanda seyfried!
cg
this isnt really a movie review just me thinking out loud...overall, i liked the film and the whole fatal attraction theme works pretty well...i had a few issues with some aspects of the film, but i wont discuss them here bc i dont want to spoil it for those of you who havent seen it!
seriously, though, in fantasy, the idea that a woman suspects her husband is cheating and then hires a call girl to present herself to the man and then gets aroused by hearing all the details that went on between the girl and the husband, well, its pretty erotic and very believable...im sure the woman would be confused by those aroused feelings and the feeling that she is losing her husband to other women...
if we take this fantasy a step further...and the woman continues to pay the young call girl to spend time with the husband and then gradually develops a physical relationship with the young girl...what would happen next?....would the husband find out and also get aroused?...would the girl and the woman begin to see each other exclusively?...
people enjoy hearing about sexual encounters..it is why they look online to find those naughty stories so they can imagine they are there in the room ...watching...maybe through a hidden corner or closet...or through a discreetly placed camera...possibly touching themselves as they watch the events unfold...
somehow, in this scenario, i think that something would be lost if the ultimate fantasy of the wife, call girl and husband all together played out...for those that enjoy that mystery and secrecy, those would, in a sense, be gone....but there would always be that lingering thought of...what if....that would add to the anticipation and sexual hum...
perhaps the reality of it...or the possibility that it could be real is what draws people to fantasies such as this one...there is a fine line for many people as to what is a fantasy and what fantasies can become reality...when those fantasies become reality, those fantasies that walk that very fine line, people stretch the concept of who they are, at least, who they thought they were...and coming face to fact with that much raw honesty can prove toxic for some...
you know what they say, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger...perhaps the same can be said here...when entering the cave of truth, if you dont flinch and face it full-force, will it make you stronger?...will it blow away everything you thought you knew?...or will it blow away in a cloud of ash leaving you lost and roaming the world in disillusion for eternity?...
in any case, check out the film, its not bad, and there is a sex scene with julianne moore and amanda seyfried!
cg
Sunday, September 5, 2010
all's right with the world
let's begin by shooing "whiny girl" out the door:
*takes broom and sweeps out mopey, whiny girl and gives her a firm swat on the bottom with the straw end of the broom - slams door*
*opens door again and shouts, "yeah, and dont come back here anymore! you whine too much!"
lol...seriously, men have NO idea how hormones can make women wacky...its like living with a split personality at times..fo' sho'..i have a couple of other things on my mind that i have told a couple of you about, nothing major, just little things that get the hamster rolling around...yeah, he rolls around...laughing at me...nasty little bugger...
so i talked with the young'un and he basically said "i love that you are always turned on, i just dont know what to do with you"...
bdenied and his wife had a good laugh over that one!
but here's something funny: i went to purchase a new toy and my cc was declined..i thought i entered something wrong but it didnt go through...i thought...wow, and i cant even call the cc company and ask what's up bc that would be an awkward convo:
person: hello, thank you for calling abc cc company, how can i help today?
me: yes, i was just trying to make an online purchase and it was declined. i pay off the balance regularly so i know it isnt an issue of reaching the limit.
person: hmm, well let's see if we can find out the problem. can you tell me what you were trying to purchase?
me: um, a vibrator...
person: ...
honestly, i am sure these people see and hear about all kinds of purchases people make...lol...but i certainly didnt want to try and see how that would go!...perhaps its just as well, because i really wanted this other one anyhow, but it was a bit more expensive...odd how the more expensive transaction went through! lol
all's well that ends well!...
cg
*takes broom and sweeps out mopey, whiny girl and gives her a firm swat on the bottom with the straw end of the broom - slams door*
*opens door again and shouts, "yeah, and dont come back here anymore! you whine too much!"
lol...seriously, men have NO idea how hormones can make women wacky...its like living with a split personality at times..fo' sho'..i have a couple of other things on my mind that i have told a couple of you about, nothing major, just little things that get the hamster rolling around...yeah, he rolls around...laughing at me...nasty little bugger...
so i talked with the young'un and he basically said "i love that you are always turned on, i just dont know what to do with you"...
bdenied and his wife had a good laugh over that one!
but here's something funny: i went to purchase a new toy and my cc was declined..i thought i entered something wrong but it didnt go through...i thought...wow, and i cant even call the cc company and ask what's up bc that would be an awkward convo:
person: hello, thank you for calling abc cc company, how can i help today?
me: yes, i was just trying to make an online purchase and it was declined. i pay off the balance regularly so i know it isnt an issue of reaching the limit.
person: hmm, well let's see if we can find out the problem. can you tell me what you were trying to purchase?
me: um, a vibrator...
person: ...
honestly, i am sure these people see and hear about all kinds of purchases people make...lol...but i certainly didnt want to try and see how that would go!...perhaps its just as well, because i really wanted this other one anyhow, but it was a bit more expensive...odd how the more expensive transaction went through! lol
all's well that ends well!...
cg
Friday, September 3, 2010
confused
before i begin this post, i wanted to share a big "thank you" to those of you who have been so supportive of me and my curiosities...some of you have been following my blog for a long time, others more recently...but thank you! (you guys know who you are :)
anyhow, two things happened tonight that kinda sorta inflicted a little self-doubt...someone said that i am too intimidating because i am aroused often...too horny, he said...
wow...really?...i never thought of myself as being so horny that i am that overwhelming...i mean, yes, there are times when i can orgasm a lot and often...and other times not so much...like merlin said about the cycles of women and sexual arousal...
i will admit that i was just a tiny bit embarrassed...dont ask why, it was just a quick reaction...i have never acted like i was about to just throw him down and force-fuck him...he is a lot bigger than i am, so i dont know where he would think that...
then, not 30 minutes after that i am talking to a friend...he knows about some of my recent experiences that i've posted on here and he flat out said he didnt like it...he said "i hope you go through this phase quickly"...then he called me a slut, to which i replied, thank you...he laughed it off but i was still bothered...not by the fact that he called me a slut, but the tone and disgust i could hear in his voice...
he asked later if i was mad...and i said no, not mad, disappointed...he asked why didnt i argue back or disagree...what would be the point?...he has his opinions and i will not try to sway him...i think it bothered me because he is a good friend and i would have expected something more...
i explained that my sexual curiosities are my own and have nothing to do with him...he agreed and i could tell he was unaware he had let me down...as a friend, i dont expect him to agree with me and to jump for joy over every decision i make...but they are mine to make, good, bad, or indifferent, and the judgment that he saw fit to pass was hurtful because he is a friend...
he knows i am disappointed...i am confused and hurt to a degree...perhaps it is the feeling of being "naked" and open...i try really really hard not to judge others...i dont know the ins and outs of the lives they lead...im not perfect, i miss the mark at times...and i am okay with that...
i just have to remember that the world wont accept me the way i am...at least not all of me...which is why i am thankful that i do have such a good support here...
i hope you guys know how much i enjoy having you around to tease, chat, and engage in meaningless, er, meaningful conversation...
thank you.
cg
anyhow, two things happened tonight that kinda sorta inflicted a little self-doubt...someone said that i am too intimidating because i am aroused often...too horny, he said...
wow...really?...i never thought of myself as being so horny that i am that overwhelming...i mean, yes, there are times when i can orgasm a lot and often...and other times not so much...like merlin said about the cycles of women and sexual arousal...
i will admit that i was just a tiny bit embarrassed...dont ask why, it was just a quick reaction...i have never acted like i was about to just throw him down and force-fuck him...he is a lot bigger than i am, so i dont know where he would think that...
then, not 30 minutes after that i am talking to a friend...he knows about some of my recent experiences that i've posted on here and he flat out said he didnt like it...he said "i hope you go through this phase quickly"...then he called me a slut, to which i replied, thank you...he laughed it off but i was still bothered...not by the fact that he called me a slut, but the tone and disgust i could hear in his voice...
he asked later if i was mad...and i said no, not mad, disappointed...he asked why didnt i argue back or disagree...what would be the point?...he has his opinions and i will not try to sway him...i think it bothered me because he is a good friend and i would have expected something more...
i explained that my sexual curiosities are my own and have nothing to do with him...he agreed and i could tell he was unaware he had let me down...as a friend, i dont expect him to agree with me and to jump for joy over every decision i make...but they are mine to make, good, bad, or indifferent, and the judgment that he saw fit to pass was hurtful because he is a friend...
he knows i am disappointed...i am confused and hurt to a degree...perhaps it is the feeling of being "naked" and open...i try really really hard not to judge others...i dont know the ins and outs of the lives they lead...im not perfect, i miss the mark at times...and i am okay with that...
i just have to remember that the world wont accept me the way i am...at least not all of me...which is why i am thankful that i do have such a good support here...
i hope you guys know how much i enjoy having you around to tease, chat, and engage in meaningless, er, meaningful conversation...
thank you.
cg
a mouthful
he watched as i unbuttoned each of the three buttons on my blouse...his scent slithered slowly into my nostrils, racing unfiltered to my brain...i wanted to breathe it in, let in linger and savor it...i pulled my open shirt past my shoulders, exposing the soft flesh of my breasts, pale against the black bra i wore...
he reached down and pulled them out from within the confines of the dark material and latched onto one of my nipples with his mouth...he suckled them slowly, firmly taking them into his mouth using his lips, teeth, and tongue...
he reached down and slipped his hand down my leg and up under my skirt...his cool fingers slid along my thighs while his mouth continued ravaging my breasts...after a while, he pulled back and then i removed my bra enjoying the feel of having my breasts sway and move freely...
his cock lay before me...my tongue circled the head, tasting his precum...it was saltier than last time...we soon settled into a rhythm...his hands on my head, his cock slipping in and out of my mouth, at times pushing against the back of my throat...
i sat back and he reached once again under my skirt...he rubbed along my panty-covered pussy...his fingers pulled the black fabric aside and he probed with his long cool fingers, searching for the hot warmth that lay hidden...slowly, i whispered, his over-eager fingers pushed too quickly at first, excited by all the wetness...he gently eased a finger inside and our ears soon heard the soft sucking sounds of his fingers slipping in and out of my pussy...back and forth i moved with the thrusting of his hand...i could feel the wetness oozing out of me...
once again i was on my knees, his cock in my mouth, my hands on his balls...i wanted to make him cum...faster he thrust his cock into my mouth...until he whispered those three little words "im gonna cum"...thick cum filled the back of my throat and i nearly gagged from lack of air and all the cum filling my throat, but i recovered quickly and in one quick swallow it was all gone...
cg
he reached down and pulled them out from within the confines of the dark material and latched onto one of my nipples with his mouth...he suckled them slowly, firmly taking them into his mouth using his lips, teeth, and tongue...
he reached down and slipped his hand down my leg and up under my skirt...his cool fingers slid along my thighs while his mouth continued ravaging my breasts...after a while, he pulled back and then i removed my bra enjoying the feel of having my breasts sway and move freely...
his cock lay before me...my tongue circled the head, tasting his precum...it was saltier than last time...we soon settled into a rhythm...his hands on my head, his cock slipping in and out of my mouth, at times pushing against the back of my throat...
i sat back and he reached once again under my skirt...he rubbed along my panty-covered pussy...his fingers pulled the black fabric aside and he probed with his long cool fingers, searching for the hot warmth that lay hidden...slowly, i whispered, his over-eager fingers pushed too quickly at first, excited by all the wetness...he gently eased a finger inside and our ears soon heard the soft sucking sounds of his fingers slipping in and out of my pussy...back and forth i moved with the thrusting of his hand...i could feel the wetness oozing out of me...
once again i was on my knees, his cock in my mouth, my hands on his balls...i wanted to make him cum...faster he thrust his cock into my mouth...until he whispered those three little words "im gonna cum"...thick cum filled the back of my throat and i nearly gagged from lack of air and all the cum filling my throat, but i recovered quickly and in one quick swallow it was all gone...
cg
Sunday, August 29, 2010
sex bomb
yesterday, i came four times...i was extremely hormonal...men have no idea what women go through!...it's like being the seven dwarfs all at the same time...i think they left out the 8th one...horny...
when i told him this was his response:
"man, you're a little sex bomb! i love it!"
we really need to fix this issue with the conflicting schedules...fast
cg
when i told him this was his response:
"man, you're a little sex bomb! i love it!"
we really need to fix this issue with the conflicting schedules...fast
cg
Friday, August 27, 2010
the power of the pussy
one of the things i enjoy about blogging are some of the interesting people i "meet" via email...sometimes, these people drift in for a while and others will linger on....anyhow, today's post was plucked out of the in/outbox:
its been a long tough week for me...work is kickin' my ass!...i'll work a "real" post for tomorrow or even later tonight if i can stay awake that long lol...
power to the pussy!
cg
him: Oh come on, you can't make me believe you're what, 30-something and you haven't yet come to terms with the fact that you have to manage men? You're just in denial, that's all, hoping gravity doesn't exist, or E does not equal MC squared.
me:have you ever been a woman trying to manage men?...think about that for just a second...
on that note...last night i sent a naughty text to a man...talking about how i was using one of my toys...he said, damn, now im all hard...he wanted to call..i said...no, gn!....to which he replied "damn!...i'll get you back!"....
no you wont, i texted...why not?, he queried...because you dont have the pussy.
he's young...he has so much to learn...
him: Damn, you make a good point there. Man has to have the vitamin P, else the world stops. Okay, you win.me: the power pussy...all holy and powerful...more than a vessel...it is like a magical chalice of goodness...there are even the rare purity pussies...pussies so pure that they can bring a man back from the brink of death..
of course, those are only rumors...
damn, that was funny, that might make a funny post lol
him: lmao, you're right, that would make a good post. Call it the holy grail of pussies. And we men will send thousands of ships across the sea just to fight and win one. Yes, this young man of yours has a lot to learn about the power between your legs.
its been a long tough week for me...work is kickin' my ass!...i'll work a "real" post for tomorrow or even later tonight if i can stay awake that long lol...
power to the pussy!
cg
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
making out in the car
i want to see you, he said to me...
i cant...i have plans...
please...i need to see you...i can meet you anywhere, he says...
no, i am already on the way home and i have plans with friends...
please, he begs me, i have been waiting for you...i want you...now...give me 20 minutes...just to see you...nothing else...unless you want it...
i hesitated...what was i thinking?....he was around the corner...i had only to say the words and he would be here...but i also had people coming over soon...
he was there in less than a minute...i pulled on my jeans and took my hair down from its loose bun...barefoot i made my way outside...i slid into the seat and he reached for me immediately...our lips touched...i tasted his tongue...he pushed my shirt aside and pulled out my breasts...he latched on and tugged with his tongue and lips...his fingers pressing between my legs...
he pulled out his cock...he wanted me to taste it...but i couldnt...not when i knew any minute someone would arrive...i could explain a visitor, but my head in the visitor's lap?...everyone would want to know...how did you meet?...who is he?...why didnt you tell us?...
i played with it...teasing him...i wanted to taste it so bad...but i wouldnt...i wanted him to want it more...he played with my nipples...making me so wet....
he left...we both had to go....it was short...but enough of a taste to make us want more...
cg
i cant...i have plans...
please...i need to see you...i can meet you anywhere, he says...
no, i am already on the way home and i have plans with friends...
please, he begs me, i have been waiting for you...i want you...now...give me 20 minutes...just to see you...nothing else...unless you want it...
i hesitated...what was i thinking?....he was around the corner...i had only to say the words and he would be here...but i also had people coming over soon...
he was there in less than a minute...i pulled on my jeans and took my hair down from its loose bun...barefoot i made my way outside...i slid into the seat and he reached for me immediately...our lips touched...i tasted his tongue...he pushed my shirt aside and pulled out my breasts...he latched on and tugged with his tongue and lips...his fingers pressing between my legs...
he pulled out his cock...he wanted me to taste it...but i couldnt...not when i knew any minute someone would arrive...i could explain a visitor, but my head in the visitor's lap?...everyone would want to know...how did you meet?...who is he?...why didnt you tell us?...
i played with it...teasing him...i wanted to taste it so bad...but i wouldnt...i wanted him to want it more...he played with my nipples...making me so wet....
he left...we both had to go....it was short...but enough of a taste to make us want more...
cg
from the outbox
this was pulled from an email exchange between myself and one of my blogger buddies (he thought it would be a good post!):
my email:
the response:
(you really do encounter the neatest people through blogging!)
cg
my email:
oh he is so deliciously innocent i feel like a vampire ready to suck him dry!...he wanted to come over last night...i told him no...i do not live alone and these things have their time...you cannot rush into things...you must savor them and let the anticipation build a bit...you do not gulp a glass of champagne...you sip..let the fizzy bubbles tickle your tongue and the back of your throat...you savor the cool sweetness and let a soft smile play upon your lips...and maybe...at the bottom of the glass...there is a sliver of a strawberry, heavy with that cool, fizzy sweetness waiting to burst inside your mouth...
"im a terrible lover" he says "but i love going down on a woman...i could do it all day and not cum...because i want her to cum over and over..."
terrible?...because he would cum first...he says this with a chuckle...he isnt bitter or bothered...it simply is and he doesnt mind because in his words "it is all about making the woman cum"...
i asked him "what if i told you that you could have orgasms without ejaculating?"...he laughed and said it wasnt possible...oh, but it is, i said...he wants to know...how to do it...it takes time, i said...time and patience...if he is looking for a quick answer he wont find it, i said, but if he wants a journey of discovering himself through sex and intimacy, then that is a path that he may want to consider...
we would have time this weekend but i have other commitments...plus...he can wait...it will be good for you to wait, i told him...i could feel him grinning that boyish grin of his...okay... he said...i can wait!...just tell me what to do!
yes, i feel like a vampire prepping the young virgin for his fall into the dark embrace...
what a rush...
the response:
yep, i guess that was a nice post after all!Cg, that would make a tremendous post...Very sensual and very much an erotic story and also a very good one for the girl being in charge. You tell him you have a male friend (me) who personally knows it is possible to orgasm without ejaculating....and when it happens it is so much fun....there are mystics in India who go their whole lives without spilling their seed but orgasm almost on self demand....The journey is often the better part of the trip...The destination is always more disappointing than the travel flyer suggests....Too have a woman control the orgasm and the ejaculation is one of life's true pleasures.....that is why I love it when my wife brings me to the edge and just keeps me there...she does it as much for her pleasure...at first she thought she was depriving me of something...Now she knows she deprives me of the eternal tease if she lets me cum......Yes my lovely vampire, suck the virginity right out of him....deny him what he wants and you will have him eating from your hand......his dick will be your dick...Your toy to take out and play with whenever you want......thanks for sharing with me..
(you really do encounter the neatest people through blogging!)
cg
Friday, August 20, 2010
i cant believe its not butter!
i was looking for a new lube to use (the one i was using was causing this burning for like a day or so ...tried it a few times, same feeling...but when i didnt use it and used my own "natural" lube, i was fine)...anyhow, i am leery of commercial lubes, so in my searches i came across boy butter...
...boy...butter...
now doesnt THAT sound someone's special gfwb..."yeah, that's tom in this picture...he's my boy butter...he ALWAYS gets me going!"
it looks interesting for sure, and i think i might try some out if only to say i have...i bet it'd make an awesome bride-to-be gift, lol...
honestly, i think i might try coconut oil/butter as well (that is how i found boy butter in the first place!)...anyone ever tried it?...
cg
...boy...butter...
now doesnt THAT sound someone's special gfwb..."yeah, that's tom in this picture...he's my boy butter...he ALWAYS gets me going!"
it looks interesting for sure, and i think i might try some out if only to say i have...i bet it'd make an awesome bride-to-be gift, lol...
honestly, i think i might try coconut oil/butter as well (that is how i found boy butter in the first place!)...anyone ever tried it?...
cg
Thursday, August 19, 2010
the good boy
that was hot, he said, when i told him he was a good boy...he said he enjoys pleasing a woman and getting a reward for being good...
he is younger...several years....he may not know what he wants...
but i might be able to help him find out...;)
cg
he is younger...several years....he may not know what he wants...
but i might be able to help him find out...;)
cg
the ponderance of men
men are endlessly fascinating to this common observer of the world...how they can seem so sure of themselves one minute and so unsure of themselves the next...how they can be so hard, rough, incapable of any kind of flexibility at all and yet, like the sea, they moving soft and low then hard and deep...they project such an outward appearance of no concern regarding the opinions or thoughts of others that it may be easy to underestimate the complexity that lies beneath...
i read a comment on court's blog recently by the fascinating keats...court questioned if men at times feel that little knot of worry that can niggle, wiggle into a woman's mind, heart, and soul when feeling a lover has mentally moved on...that lack of attention or concern we perceive when we havent heard from that special person can fester into irritation, anger, sadness, and even fear...
keats replied with:
i thought about this for a while...it lingered in my brain and sat comfortably in a tiny nook, settling...are we as women so concerned with ourselves that we forget the humanity that, even if only a little!, lies buried beneath this exterior that men portray to us?...we scheme on attention seeking behaviors (oh, how we praise ourselves for our subtlety that surely no one else can see!) in order to captivate, enchant, and beguile our men...it reminds us of our femininity and our power to capture the heart (if only for a brief moment!) of our prey (for make no mistake, gentlemen, you are the prey and we are the huntresses)...
when i told keats that i was inspired to create a post on his comment, he seemed somewhat amused that perhaps my post would be about something that had caused me to become distraught, upset...how very wrong you are, sir!...
i do not think my pendulum will swing so far to the extreme that i will overcompensate and flood my lovely interest(s) with undying attention (after all, who would want THAT 24/7) to make sure he knows i am thinking of him...however, i will endeavor to remember that men do enjoy those special notes, gestures, and tokens of attention as well...they may not show their appreciation in the same way as a woman would, but that increased ardor in the bedroom (or hallway, living room, bathroom, kitchen table) will their way of saying "hey, babe, thanks for that email today, that made my day!"
(ironically, i cannot STAND the word "babe"...not quite sure why...has always bothered me...but only when someone uses it with me, i could care less when other people use it with each other)
cg
i read a comment on court's blog recently by the fascinating keats...court questioned if men at times feel that little knot of worry that can niggle, wiggle into a woman's mind, heart, and soul when feeling a lover has mentally moved on...that lack of attention or concern we perceive when we havent heard from that special person can fester into irritation, anger, sadness, and even fear...
keats replied with:
i thought about this for a while...it lingered in my brain and sat comfortably in a tiny nook, settling...are we as women so concerned with ourselves that we forget the humanity that, even if only a little!, lies buried beneath this exterior that men portray to us?...we scheme on attention seeking behaviors (oh, how we praise ourselves for our subtlety that surely no one else can see!) in order to captivate, enchant, and beguile our men...it reminds us of our femininity and our power to capture the heart (if only for a brief moment!) of our prey (for make no mistake, gentlemen, you are the prey and we are the huntresses)...
when i told keats that i was inspired to create a post on his comment, he seemed somewhat amused that perhaps my post would be about something that had caused me to become distraught, upset...how very wrong you are, sir!...
i do not think my pendulum will swing so far to the extreme that i will overcompensate and flood my lovely interest(s) with undying attention (after all, who would want THAT 24/7) to make sure he knows i am thinking of him...however, i will endeavor to remember that men do enjoy those special notes, gestures, and tokens of attention as well...they may not show their appreciation in the same way as a woman would, but that increased ardor in the bedroom (or hallway, living room, bathroom, kitchen table) will their way of saying "hey, babe, thanks for that email today, that made my day!"
(ironically, i cannot STAND the word "babe"...not quite sure why...has always bothered me...but only when someone uses it with me, i could care less when other people use it with each other)
cg
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
missed opportunities
i got some naughty pics from sexy texan...they were very nice!...my week has been very hectic so time hasnt been on our side for setting up time to get together again...but then i get a text...can we meet tonight?...damn!...i really wanted to..but there is just no way with the way my week has been at work...maybe later this week?...def next week...
tonight, though, i will take a long, lovely bath...soak in the hot scented water...and relax by candlelight...i'll probably have a toy with me...i wont be intent on release...it will be sexual therapy without orgasm...just teasing and stroking...a slow unwinding of all things...i will clear my mind of everything but the sensation of the water on my skin...the soft glow of candlelight...the water that moves with my hands...arms...legs...i will feel my soul sigh a blissful breath as it re-connects with me...all the soft edges of it slipping into place...
cg
tonight, though, i will take a long, lovely bath...soak in the hot scented water...and relax by candlelight...i'll probably have a toy with me...i wont be intent on release...it will be sexual therapy without orgasm...just teasing and stroking...a slow unwinding of all things...i will clear my mind of everything but the sensation of the water on my skin...the soft glow of candlelight...the water that moves with my hands...arms...legs...i will feel my soul sigh a blissful breath as it re-connects with me...all the soft edges of it slipping into place...
cg
Sunday, August 15, 2010
sexual freedom or sexual danger?
a while back i engaged in a discussion with a friend regarding the film "looking for mr. goodbar" (if you haven't seen it, this stars a fabulous diane keaton...imo, probably one of her best films ever)...my friend advocated the film as an example of what happens when women engage in promiscuous behavior...while, i agree that the film, which is based on some actual events, does flash major warning signs to women who are questioning their sexual roles, i thought about what she said...that this film should be watched by women so that they may not stray to the "dark side" of sexual things...
this led to a discussion regarding the sexuality of women in general with one simple question: are women who choose to explore different parts of their sexuality in essence courting danger?
women are consistently labeled the "weaker sex"...no matter the strides over time that women will make, they will always be "softer", "sweeter", and, thus, bring out the more protective nature from others...when a woman makes a break from what is considered traditional or conventional, suddenly those protective urges dissipate..."she shouldnt have done that" say other women when a provocatively dressed female is taken advantage of...
and men can be the worst...they speak of a desire to see women embrace their sexuality...to be open and free...and how they love it!...until that woman falls from grace...when her private sexual freedoms are discovered...those men who cheered and encouraged the most...are the ones who suddenly become so quiet...
at work, my boss speaks of those who choose to live an unconventional lifestyle...i spoke of a waitress at one of my favorite restaurants who happened to be transitioning...she was sweet and kind and witty...my boss wrinkled her nose and said "oh, cg, i just cant understand why someone would do that to themselves! would you call it a him or a her or just an it?"...i quietly said "well, based on her long hair, simple makeup, and skirt, i would call her a "she" since a person most certainly could not be called an "it"...
the reality is that as much as we want people to embrace their individuality, we expect them to do so discretely...to not flaunt it in the faces of those who make the choice to not knock on the unknown doors of sexual curiosity...because if you knock on something, chances are it may fall on you...and whose fault would that be?...tsk tsk tsk....
even now, at times, i struggle myself with accepting parts of my own sexuality...with each passing day, though, i learn to question less and find the joy in the things i am curious about...good, bad, or indifferent it is who i am and how i learn about myself and others...is it sexual freedom or sexual danger that i court?...
hopefully the freedom, lol, but as someone once said "as soon as there is life, there is danger"...
cg
this led to a discussion regarding the sexuality of women in general with one simple question: are women who choose to explore different parts of their sexuality in essence courting danger?
women are consistently labeled the "weaker sex"...no matter the strides over time that women will make, they will always be "softer", "sweeter", and, thus, bring out the more protective nature from others...when a woman makes a break from what is considered traditional or conventional, suddenly those protective urges dissipate..."she shouldnt have done that" say other women when a provocatively dressed female is taken advantage of...
and men can be the worst...they speak of a desire to see women embrace their sexuality...to be open and free...and how they love it!...until that woman falls from grace...when her private sexual freedoms are discovered...those men who cheered and encouraged the most...are the ones who suddenly become so quiet...
at work, my boss speaks of those who choose to live an unconventional lifestyle...i spoke of a waitress at one of my favorite restaurants who happened to be transitioning...she was sweet and kind and witty...my boss wrinkled her nose and said "oh, cg, i just cant understand why someone would do that to themselves! would you call it a him or a her or just an it?"...i quietly said "well, based on her long hair, simple makeup, and skirt, i would call her a "she" since a person most certainly could not be called an "it"...
the reality is that as much as we want people to embrace their individuality, we expect them to do so discretely...to not flaunt it in the faces of those who make the choice to not knock on the unknown doors of sexual curiosity...because if you knock on something, chances are it may fall on you...and whose fault would that be?...tsk tsk tsk....
even now, at times, i struggle myself with accepting parts of my own sexuality...with each passing day, though, i learn to question less and find the joy in the things i am curious about...good, bad, or indifferent it is who i am and how i learn about myself and others...is it sexual freedom or sexual danger that i court?...
hopefully the freedom, lol, but as someone once said "as soon as there is life, there is danger"...
cg
Saturday, August 14, 2010
like a needle in a haystack
im always curious about how people manage to find my blog...so here is a current breakdown of searches and blogs that lead to me:
searches:
"he sucked my boobs he fucked me" ( i really dont know how bc when i clicked it i couldnt find me)
"i needed a cock between my legs"
"cum sicle" (i get this one a lot)
"sucked his cock"
and then a lot for just "avid curiosity" which is different
most of the people that come to my blog come from the same places all the time:
scott and emma (they really push the limits at times - not for the faint of heart! lol)
jake (facts and friction) (always hot, always sexy)
bdenied (great blogger buddy!)
dateable dork (she's a mess lol and ALWAYS funny...& guys, she posts pics from time to time!)
the first three have been the most consistent for at least a year i think...just interesting to find out where the pervs come from!
i saw this clip of an underwater blowjob from TBK last night...and while i found the woman's make up hideous the idea of giving a bj while submerged underwater was kinda interesting...i have to give the woman props because it had to be hard as hell since she was sucking cock, holding her breath under water, and trying to keep from floating up all at the same time...and keeping her eyes open...
but i will admit that now i am curious to try that...and the best part of the clip was how it looks when a man ejaculates under water...that was very erotic...
cg
searches:
"he sucked my boobs he fucked me" ( i really dont know how bc when i clicked it i couldnt find me)
"i needed a cock between my legs"
"cum sicle" (i get this one a lot)
"sucked his cock"
and then a lot for just "avid curiosity" which is different
most of the people that come to my blog come from the same places all the time:
scott and emma (they really push the limits at times - not for the faint of heart! lol)
jake (facts and friction) (always hot, always sexy)
bdenied (great blogger buddy!)
dateable dork (she's a mess lol and ALWAYS funny...& guys, she posts pics from time to time!)
the first three have been the most consistent for at least a year i think...just interesting to find out where the pervs come from!
i saw this clip of an underwater blowjob from TBK last night...and while i found the woman's make up hideous the idea of giving a bj while submerged underwater was kinda interesting...i have to give the woman props because it had to be hard as hell since she was sucking cock, holding her breath under water, and trying to keep from floating up all at the same time...and keeping her eyes open...
but i will admit that now i am curious to try that...and the best part of the clip was how it looks when a man ejaculates under water...that was very erotic...
cg
Thursday, August 12, 2010
pardon me, but your flight has been delayed
so date with sexy texan...delayed...ugh...so not fair...
and the minute i found out...it was like my well of pussy juices turned to sand...drier than bone dry...which is terrible! (and probably only short lived...i'll be wet and ready again in no time ;)
soldier boy has been calling...a LOT...speak of the devil, guess who's calling right now??...
i asked him if he's fucked anyone lately and he seemed a little shocked...then i asked him to tell me if it was good...how was she?...did he cum anywhere interesting?...after a while he could tell i was getting aroused...so he started to get aroused...
the more he told me about how they fucked and licked and sucked each other the more wet i became...my clit getting harder...
i came pretty hard and he did too...we had never talked about something like that before...it makes me even more turned on when i know i've turned someone on and they go and fuck someone else..
time for this curious girl to curl up under the covers and fall into the arms of morpheus...
cg
and the minute i found out...it was like my well of pussy juices turned to sand...drier than bone dry...which is terrible! (and probably only short lived...i'll be wet and ready again in no time ;)
soldier boy has been calling...a LOT...speak of the devil, guess who's calling right now??...
i asked him if he's fucked anyone lately and he seemed a little shocked...then i asked him to tell me if it was good...how was she?...did he cum anywhere interesting?...after a while he could tell i was getting aroused...so he started to get aroused...
the more he told me about how they fucked and licked and sucked each other the more wet i became...my clit getting harder...
i came pretty hard and he did too...we had never talked about something like that before...it makes me even more turned on when i know i've turned someone on and they go and fuck someone else..
time for this curious girl to curl up under the covers and fall into the arms of morpheus...
cg
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
catch me if you can
i have always had very vivid dreams...for as long as i can remember...dreams that are like movies and sometimes i am myself and other times i am someone else, but i am watching myself play the part of someone else...hope you can follow that one!...
anyhow, many of my dreams often have recurring themes, which is pretty normal for most people i think...one of the themes is being chased...i have this intense bubble of excitement...like a laugh i can barely contain...in my dreams, i am not frightened...i know i will get caught...and therein lies the excitement...i am running and hiding and doing everything i can to avoid getting caught, but in my heart i know whoever is chasing me will catch up to me sooner or later...
i revel in knowing i lead such a merry chase...my heart pounds beneath my breast and my lips are spread in a soft, open smile as i breathe in and out...
most of the time in my dreams i am wearing something long soft and sheer...my hands hold up the long skirts and my hair is beginning to fall out of some loosely arranged updo...my skin feels cool the breeze licks my flesh and the sun is almost always setting...again, as if the chase is almost at an end...a time symbol of sorts...
bdenied suggested that perhaps i want to be desired and cherished...that's possible...
at this point, at least, i have never been caught in my dreams...i wake up feel light and breathless..as if i have spent the entire time running from someone or something...and filled with some buzzing energy...
cg
anyhow, many of my dreams often have recurring themes, which is pretty normal for most people i think...one of the themes is being chased...i have this intense bubble of excitement...like a laugh i can barely contain...in my dreams, i am not frightened...i know i will get caught...and therein lies the excitement...i am running and hiding and doing everything i can to avoid getting caught, but in my heart i know whoever is chasing me will catch up to me sooner or later...
i revel in knowing i lead such a merry chase...my heart pounds beneath my breast and my lips are spread in a soft, open smile as i breathe in and out...
most of the time in my dreams i am wearing something long soft and sheer...my hands hold up the long skirts and my hair is beginning to fall out of some loosely arranged updo...my skin feels cool the breeze licks my flesh and the sun is almost always setting...again, as if the chase is almost at an end...a time symbol of sorts...
bdenied suggested that perhaps i want to be desired and cherished...that's possible...
at this point, at least, i have never been caught in my dreams...i wake up feel light and breathless..as if i have spent the entire time running from someone or something...and filled with some buzzing energy...
cg
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
you are my soul mate
lol...a friend of mine said that to me the other day...he was struck by our easy compatibility and spoke of the possibility that we are soul mates...not in a "true love" kind of way...but in a sense that we share a deep connection and never do we have a boring conversation...
so, is it possible to have a soul mate that is platonic?...
is it possible to share a deep connection based on something inexplicable...that allows a complete acceptance for each others total being?..
it certainly is an entertaining thought!..
in other news, sexy texan sent me some sexy pics today...we have both been busy at work the last couple of days and he wondered if i had lost interest in him...of course i hadnt lost interest and i told him so...then he said the most fascinating words i always love to hear from men...
i want to please you...
there were more words in the email but that was all i needed to see...he described in detail how he wanted to please me...feeling me cum all over his fingers, hands, cock....i was instantly aroused and feeling warm and sexy all at the same time....
seeing his cock in those pics made me want to have him in my mouth once more...tasting him, sucking him, making him cum...
is it friday, yet??
cg
so, is it possible to have a soul mate that is platonic?...
is it possible to share a deep connection based on something inexplicable...that allows a complete acceptance for each others total being?..
it certainly is an entertaining thought!..
in other news, sexy texan sent me some sexy pics today...we have both been busy at work the last couple of days and he wondered if i had lost interest in him...of course i hadnt lost interest and i told him so...then he said the most fascinating words i always love to hear from men...
i want to please you...
there were more words in the email but that was all i needed to see...he described in detail how he wanted to please me...feeling me cum all over his fingers, hands, cock....i was instantly aroused and feeling warm and sexy all at the same time....
seeing his cock in those pics made me want to have him in my mouth once more...tasting him, sucking him, making him cum...
is it friday, yet??
cg
Monday, August 9, 2010
to blow or not to blow?
well, if you read the last couple of posts then you know the answer to that one..to blow...in a car, to be exact...
we had not planned on meeting...then he texts me...i will be on your side of town for business, will you be available to meet after?...i knew he meant meet for something sexual...this was no "hey, let's have coffee and chat!"...problem was i already had plans with friends and i was not about to bail on them for cock no matter how much i wanted it...there is this saying "bros before hos"...is there one like that for women like "chicks before dicks"?...lol...hahaha...i dont know if i would ever say that but that's pretty funny right there!...
he understood and i would txt when i was finished...except it was later than either of us expected so i just went home, took a shower and had just decided to run a quick errand to the grocery store when he texts me...did i still want to meet up...i wont lie, i got an instant throbbing between my legs...i couldnt believe what i was doing...i told little cg i was going to the store and would be back in a while (this isnt unusual, i do things at odd times)...
so in a dark parking lot under a tree we met...it was tense between us...the good kind of tension...he was very aroused...i could feel he wanted to grab me and just kiss me...he waited for me to make a move or say the word...i guess i hesitated a bit too long because he went straight for my shirt and pushed it aside so he could get to my breasts...earlier, i had shown him pics of two bras and i told him that the next time we met i would wear the one he wanted...he pushed my bra up and moaned when he touched them...he teased and pulled at my nipples before pulling them into his mouth...
his hand reached between my legs and rubbed me through my jeans...i felt hot all over...i pulled his head closer to my breasts and he bit my nipples...
he sat back after a while and pulled his cock out...he gave me that look again that said "i want to fuck you"...i immediately went down and put my mouth on his cock...guys, the sounds you make when a woman goes down on you...wow...it's awesome...his hand rested gently above my head as if he was unsure if i would mind or not...his hips lifted and we developed a rhythm where i would suck hard, my hand massaging his balls and he would push in and out and then i'd go down further and he would push harder and his cock would push against my throat a few times...
then i would lick, suck, and stroke his cock again and again...when i would come up for a breather, he would stroke me between my legs and suck on my nipples...again and again i would swallow his cock...tasting him precum...i wanted to push up his shirt and kiss his chest and lick around his nipples but for some reason i held back...
i dont know if he realized but a car nearby was watching us...it was hot...
we had talked about swallowing and i told him maybe next time so he didnt finish...we werent prepared with clean up and last time he came so much that he didnt want to ruin his pants since he had a bit of drive to get home...he wanted so badly to make me cum, he told me...
afterwards, when we parted (again, i could feel he wanted to kiss me, and i turned at the last second...we talked about that and i told him he needs to tell me what he wants/needs because i cannot read signals and i work better with words lol)...then we talked on the phone and said "it was so perfect...you were so perfect"....
i'm guessing he enjoyed it...immensely...later he told me that i essentially sucked his cock for 30 minutes off/on...it felt like only five min...lol...
next date is this week...hmm...wonder what will happen next...hehehe
cg
we had not planned on meeting...then he texts me...i will be on your side of town for business, will you be available to meet after?...i knew he meant meet for something sexual...this was no "hey, let's have coffee and chat!"...problem was i already had plans with friends and i was not about to bail on them for cock no matter how much i wanted it...there is this saying "bros before hos"...is there one like that for women like "chicks before dicks"?...lol...hahaha...i dont know if i would ever say that but that's pretty funny right there!...
he understood and i would txt when i was finished...except it was later than either of us expected so i just went home, took a shower and had just decided to run a quick errand to the grocery store when he texts me...did i still want to meet up...i wont lie, i got an instant throbbing between my legs...i couldnt believe what i was doing...i told little cg i was going to the store and would be back in a while (this isnt unusual, i do things at odd times)...
so in a dark parking lot under a tree we met...it was tense between us...the good kind of tension...he was very aroused...i could feel he wanted to grab me and just kiss me...he waited for me to make a move or say the word...i guess i hesitated a bit too long because he went straight for my shirt and pushed it aside so he could get to my breasts...earlier, i had shown him pics of two bras and i told him that the next time we met i would wear the one he wanted...he pushed my bra up and moaned when he touched them...he teased and pulled at my nipples before pulling them into his mouth...
his hand reached between my legs and rubbed me through my jeans...i felt hot all over...i pulled his head closer to my breasts and he bit my nipples...
he sat back after a while and pulled his cock out...he gave me that look again that said "i want to fuck you"...i immediately went down and put my mouth on his cock...guys, the sounds you make when a woman goes down on you...wow...it's awesome...his hand rested gently above my head as if he was unsure if i would mind or not...his hips lifted and we developed a rhythm where i would suck hard, my hand massaging his balls and he would push in and out and then i'd go down further and he would push harder and his cock would push against my throat a few times...
then i would lick, suck, and stroke his cock again and again...when i would come up for a breather, he would stroke me between my legs and suck on my nipples...again and again i would swallow his cock...tasting him precum...i wanted to push up his shirt and kiss his chest and lick around his nipples but for some reason i held back...
i dont know if he realized but a car nearby was watching us...it was hot...
we had talked about swallowing and i told him maybe next time so he didnt finish...we werent prepared with clean up and last time he came so much that he didnt want to ruin his pants since he had a bit of drive to get home...he wanted so badly to make me cum, he told me...
afterwards, when we parted (again, i could feel he wanted to kiss me, and i turned at the last second...we talked about that and i told him he needs to tell me what he wants/needs because i cannot read signals and i work better with words lol)...then we talked on the phone and said "it was so perfect...you were so perfect"....
i'm guessing he enjoyed it...immensely...later he told me that i essentially sucked his cock for 30 minutes off/on...it felt like only five min...lol...
next date is this week...hmm...wonder what will happen next...hehehe
cg
Sunday, August 8, 2010
blowin' through the jasmine in my mind
what is it about the scent of jasmine that is so seductive, soft, and inviting...i just finished shaving and after i do that i like to put my fave balm...delicious jasmine on my nether lips...leaves them soft and scented...i will def use this for next date with sexy texan (which is this week)...damn, just thinking of that makes me aroused as all get out...
biguy was getting all hot and bothered over my last post...he's such a little perv! lol...and yes, hon, i know you read this and i know you were getting aroused...this is me calling you out on it!...
sexy texan has sent me some delicious pics that i have been masturbating to...he has such a delicious cock...cant wait to have it my mouth again...
in other news, we will call him "banker"...has just tried a little too hard...too cerebral in his seduction that it leaves me feeling...dry...literally...which is a shame because he is very attractive and very intelligent...but almost "businesslike" about it all...too casual as well...everything is about whether i find him attractive or not...and sometimes it isnt about that...well, perhaps on some level it is...anyhow, we have a date this week...but a part of me just wants to cancel and say, this isnt going to work...
i'll have to think about it a little more...
cg
biguy was getting all hot and bothered over my last post...he's such a little perv! lol...and yes, hon, i know you read this and i know you were getting aroused...this is me calling you out on it!...
sexy texan has sent me some delicious pics that i have been masturbating to...he has such a delicious cock...cant wait to have it my mouth again...
in other news, we will call him "banker"...has just tried a little too hard...too cerebral in his seduction that it leaves me feeling...dry...literally...which is a shame because he is very attractive and very intelligent...but almost "businesslike" about it all...too casual as well...everything is about whether i find him attractive or not...and sometimes it isnt about that...well, perhaps on some level it is...anyhow, we have a date this week...but a part of me just wants to cancel and say, this isnt going to work...
i'll have to think about it a little more...
cg
a trip to the park
one of the last posts i mentioned a date where we had strong sexual chemistry...first of all, he was proof to me that initial reactions to ppl dont always factor into chemistry...i mean...i am very short...and he is very tall (which i knew from pics and what he'd said)...usually, i dont like guys to be more than ten or twelve inches taller than me...he surpassed that by a lot...but he was very nice, sweet, and around my age...
we met at a park and when i saw him i gave him a hug and when he leaned over so that i could do that, he was went right to my hip and kinda squeezed lightly...now, prior to this, we had exchanged emails, texts, and talked on the phone...i will say this...his voice...damn...that deep southern voice...just did things to me that he doesnt know about yet lol...and when that voice goes with that whole "southern gentleman" thing...if you dont know what im talking about, find one of them and you will totally understand! lol...
i did my usual avoid too much eye contact, talk too much thing until i settled down a bit...we walked around and just talked for a while...i could tell that he was trying to let me get to a comfort zone...he kept his distance and kinda watched me for cues...
it was raining a little so we went into his car...there wasnt anyone around but we were in a residential area so cars would come and go but with the time of day, weather, and where we were situated, we were a bit secluded...
i could tell by the look in his eyes that he was somewhat aroused...we had had discussions of semi-public acts of intimacy and i knew that he was thinking of that...i undid the top of my shirt and told him i was nervous...he laughed and showed me his hands and that he was nervous too...that his palms were sweaty and he wiped them on his pants...the minute his hands touched my breasts there was a very clear connection...his fingers were long and cool and eager to reach into my bra...his mouth latched onto my breast, pulling the nipple into his mouth with the bristles of his facial hair brushing against my breast...he wanted to touch my between my legs but i wasnt quite ready for that...
he eased my other breast out of the bra and teased my nipple with his lips, tongue, and teeth...i wanted to let go...but something made me hold back...i think it was watching cars drive past...
i wanted to see his cock...he pulled it out...and he was stroking it while playing with my breasts...he told me he really wanted to feel my lips on it but that he would understand if i didnt want to on the first time we met...i leaned over and flicked my tongue against it...he arched his back and raised his hips and moaned softly...
he asked me if i wanted to see him cum...and i did...so i wrapped my fingers around his cock and rubbed his precum over the head...when he came...it was hot, thick, and creamy...it came it giant spurts...all over my hand and on his pants (which he wasnt expecting, typically lands on his stomach and chest)...luckily, i happened to have a wet wipe thing in my purse and he had napkins in his car...i knew that we would meet again....and that next time i would most def be putting his cock in my mouth...
i am getting wet just thinking about it...
cg
we met at a park and when i saw him i gave him a hug and when he leaned over so that i could do that, he was went right to my hip and kinda squeezed lightly...now, prior to this, we had exchanged emails, texts, and talked on the phone...i will say this...his voice...damn...that deep southern voice...just did things to me that he doesnt know about yet lol...and when that voice goes with that whole "southern gentleman" thing...if you dont know what im talking about, find one of them and you will totally understand! lol...
i did my usual avoid too much eye contact, talk too much thing until i settled down a bit...we walked around and just talked for a while...i could tell that he was trying to let me get to a comfort zone...he kept his distance and kinda watched me for cues...
it was raining a little so we went into his car...there wasnt anyone around but we were in a residential area so cars would come and go but with the time of day, weather, and where we were situated, we were a bit secluded...
i could tell by the look in his eyes that he was somewhat aroused...we had had discussions of semi-public acts of intimacy and i knew that he was thinking of that...i undid the top of my shirt and told him i was nervous...he laughed and showed me his hands and that he was nervous too...that his palms were sweaty and he wiped them on his pants...the minute his hands touched my breasts there was a very clear connection...his fingers were long and cool and eager to reach into my bra...his mouth latched onto my breast, pulling the nipple into his mouth with the bristles of his facial hair brushing against my breast...he wanted to touch my between my legs but i wasnt quite ready for that...
he eased my other breast out of the bra and teased my nipple with his lips, tongue, and teeth...i wanted to let go...but something made me hold back...i think it was watching cars drive past...
i wanted to see his cock...he pulled it out...and he was stroking it while playing with my breasts...he told me he really wanted to feel my lips on it but that he would understand if i didnt want to on the first time we met...i leaned over and flicked my tongue against it...he arched his back and raised his hips and moaned softly...
he asked me if i wanted to see him cum...and i did...so i wrapped my fingers around his cock and rubbed his precum over the head...when he came...it was hot, thick, and creamy...it came it giant spurts...all over my hand and on his pants (which he wasnt expecting, typically lands on his stomach and chest)...luckily, i happened to have a wet wipe thing in my purse and he had napkins in his car...i knew that we would meet again....and that next time i would most def be putting his cock in my mouth...
i am getting wet just thinking about it...
cg
Saturday, August 7, 2010
comment moderation
ugh...i hate comment moderation bc it is just one more thing for me to do, but i kept getting all those stupid things on my comments...in general, most comments will be allowed to go through...whether you like me or not...just not the spam whatnot...
just fyi....
cg
just fyi....
cg
updates, new ppl, and renewed energy
coming back here is like coming home to a house that has been vacant for years but has so many good memories...curtains are opened to welcome streams of pale yellow light that reveal floating dust particles that have been sitting and waiting for someone to cast them aside...floors are dusted and cleaned to showcase worn, but sturdy wood planks that creak in certain places but are eager for more visitors to admire their classic beauty...linens are washed and returned to their rightful places with a sigh that whispers, you've come home...you've come home...
that was awfully dramatic on my part, lol, but i do have a bit of the drama within me at times...
although i've been busy (who isnt??), i am determined to make regular posts on here again...i miss you guys (well, those of you that still pop in from time to time...come back, come back!)...
cg has been a busy girl and i have actually been meeting lots of new ppl...it all started with biguy...yep...he planted the seed in my brain without even knowing...we all out having drinks one night (cg, biguy, little cg) and he was talking about how he needed to meet more ppl...and then a friend of mine said how ive become this wretched little hermit (oh, i know, only the very dearest of friends will tell us such lovely things about ourselves!) that holes herself away night after night, week after week...you get the idea...
so...i made it a goal to shed that hermit skin (yes, i know it's a shell, but its more fun to say skin)...i wasnt/am not looking for a relationship, just see what adventures/experiences i get out of it all...
so let's go through the dates, shall we?
1) nice, long lunch...no real sexual energy/chemistry but great conversation...he wanted to continue the date at the movies...i declined (two hour lunch is plenty long enough for a first date, imo) and said i'd be up for it another time...then...i sent followup thank you email next day thanking for lunch, etc, very general...email didnt go through...sent again, same response...so cg sent brief reply via chat thanking for lunch, email issue, understanding that probably didnt want to meet again, no hard feelings...i get a response...his gf found the email (lol, i know, right??) exchanges, was upset, made him delete the acct, blah blah blah...whatever, it was funny, tho, right?
2) very very intelligent...dinner date...great connection...attractive...then comes the punchline...has a gf (this is going to be a recurring theme, lol) but would love to have arrangements with me if i am interested...i declined saying i really didnt want to have a cuckoo woman chasing me down and making my life crazy...but i said if he wanted to remain friends, i was cool with that...he said that was fine...
3) super young...early 20s...very very sexual and attractive...smart, funny, different in a good way...poor baby has so many life issues right now that anything more would be way too complicated and unnecessary...but we get along great and once he gets life together (which may or may not happen anytime soon) he'll be amazing for any woman...at this time, we are good friends...
4) another young'un (there is such a thing as too young, either mentally or biologically, and this one was it!)...waay too comfortable too fast...i felt like i was scolding him the entire time (dont slap my ass, dont touch me here/there)...and i totally gave that stern parent look more than once along with a few finger wags...it was not fun and i will NOT revisit that one again...not even when he went on and on about his sexual skillz...hell NO...
5)strong sexual chemistry...both meetings went very very well...talk centers mostly around sex...which is fine with me...he came on my hand the first night we met...nice...set to meet again end of next week...
6) another crazy intelligent one...he very much wants a fwb thing...i'm not sure...he's attractive, intelligent, etc...but maybe we are both too much of the same intellectually...also, #5 seems very intent on pursuing me but not too aggressively and i dont think i could handle sexual relations with more than one person at a time...but, we are set to meet again this week, so, we will see what develops...
7) female, totally friends only...she is very sweet and we seem to get along rather well...she is having some relationship issues that i dont know if i want to discuss here...she knows about my blog, but not sure what she would feel comfortable about me discussing...
and in the middle of all of the above...soldier boy kept calling and calling...wants to hook up again...he's older now (hell, i'd forgotten he'd aged lol) and seems calmer...but...idk...sure, he's got an big cock, but that isnt everything and his drama is too much...
also, that friend i mentioned with all the drama has more drama...i told him..for someone who (in his own words) has no friends, no job, no life, you sure have a LOT Of drama...his gf (who is with another guy) has left him (again), he is having lots of seizures, losing more relationships due to drama with the gf and other personal problems...i maintain a friendship bc i know i might be the only person who will listen and he knows it too...he needs help, he knows it...he needs to let go of the gf and focus on his health and his child...hopefully he will listen!
whew!...that was a lot of typing...i will update more tomorrow...
cg
that was awfully dramatic on my part, lol, but i do have a bit of the drama within me at times...
although i've been busy (who isnt??), i am determined to make regular posts on here again...i miss you guys (well, those of you that still pop in from time to time...come back, come back!)...
cg has been a busy girl and i have actually been meeting lots of new ppl...it all started with biguy...yep...he planted the seed in my brain without even knowing...we all out having drinks one night (cg, biguy, little cg) and he was talking about how he needed to meet more ppl...and then a friend of mine said how ive become this wretched little hermit (oh, i know, only the very dearest of friends will tell us such lovely things about ourselves!) that holes herself away night after night, week after week...you get the idea...
so...i made it a goal to shed that hermit skin (yes, i know it's a shell, but its more fun to say skin)...i wasnt/am not looking for a relationship, just see what adventures/experiences i get out of it all...
so let's go through the dates, shall we?
1) nice, long lunch...no real sexual energy/chemistry but great conversation...he wanted to continue the date at the movies...i declined (two hour lunch is plenty long enough for a first date, imo) and said i'd be up for it another time...then...i sent followup thank you email next day thanking for lunch, etc, very general...email didnt go through...sent again, same response...so cg sent brief reply via chat thanking for lunch, email issue, understanding that probably didnt want to meet again, no hard feelings...i get a response...his gf found the email (lol, i know, right??) exchanges, was upset, made him delete the acct, blah blah blah...whatever, it was funny, tho, right?
2) very very intelligent...dinner date...great connection...attractive...then comes the punchline...has a gf (this is going to be a recurring theme, lol) but would love to have arrangements with me if i am interested...i declined saying i really didnt want to have a cuckoo woman chasing me down and making my life crazy...but i said if he wanted to remain friends, i was cool with that...he said that was fine...
3) super young...early 20s...very very sexual and attractive...smart, funny, different in a good way...poor baby has so many life issues right now that anything more would be way too complicated and unnecessary...but we get along great and once he gets life together (which may or may not happen anytime soon) he'll be amazing for any woman...at this time, we are good friends...
4) another young'un (there is such a thing as too young, either mentally or biologically, and this one was it!)...waay too comfortable too fast...i felt like i was scolding him the entire time (dont slap my ass, dont touch me here/there)...and i totally gave that stern parent look more than once along with a few finger wags...it was not fun and i will NOT revisit that one again...not even when he went on and on about his sexual skillz...hell NO...
5)strong sexual chemistry...both meetings went very very well...talk centers mostly around sex...which is fine with me...he came on my hand the first night we met...nice...set to meet again end of next week...
6) another crazy intelligent one...he very much wants a fwb thing...i'm not sure...he's attractive, intelligent, etc...but maybe we are both too much of the same intellectually...also, #5 seems very intent on pursuing me but not too aggressively and i dont think i could handle sexual relations with more than one person at a time...but, we are set to meet again this week, so, we will see what develops...
7) female, totally friends only...she is very sweet and we seem to get along rather well...she is having some relationship issues that i dont know if i want to discuss here...she knows about my blog, but not sure what she would feel comfortable about me discussing...
and in the middle of all of the above...soldier boy kept calling and calling...wants to hook up again...he's older now (hell, i'd forgotten he'd aged lol) and seems calmer...but...idk...sure, he's got an big cock, but that isnt everything and his drama is too much...
also, that friend i mentioned with all the drama has more drama...i told him..for someone who (in his own words) has no friends, no job, no life, you sure have a LOT Of drama...his gf (who is with another guy) has left him (again), he is having lots of seizures, losing more relationships due to drama with the gf and other personal problems...i maintain a friendship bc i know i might be the only person who will listen and he knows it too...he needs help, he knows it...he needs to let go of the gf and focus on his health and his child...hopefully he will listen!
whew!...that was a lot of typing...i will update more tomorrow...
cg
Friday, April 16, 2010
absence makes the heart grow fonder...
so they say...or, so someone once said...perhaps my absence has made your hearts grow more fond or fonder...which is grammatically correct? ...does it matter....
i've been meaning to update on the married friend i posted about a couple of posts ago...he read it and was a little upset...
anyhow, i did something that for sure many people would not do, but...here it goes...i gave him some money because he had nothing and, at the time, was snowing and he had no electricity...so...i gave him money for that, some gas, and food....
i did it as a friend, because there are times when i have needed help (not necessarily financially), and someone has freely given that assistance...he never asked for it either...i freely gave it, no strings...the question here is this: was there anyone else, a family member or other friend, that could have helped him out?...the answer is: not exactly...for whatever extenuating circumstances there are, he does not have that kind of relationship with them...it wasnt much, only $250...but it is an enormous amount when you dont have it...
here's a question for everyone (completely unrelated to the above information): if you arent physically attracted to someone, do you still go out with that person out of curiosity that something may develop or do you just keep it as friends?...the reason i ask is that someone i know has been asking me out a lot (i continually say no) and i am tempted to say yes for some unknown reason...if you ask me "do you like him"....i'd say...eh...i guess...the answer is "i should like him in "that" way"..but...i dont...at least i dont think i do...or do i just say that because i'd rather not fuss with it all...anyhow, i am thinking of say "yes" just for the hell of it...not sure why...i sometimes lack the ability to justify my answers...but then i realize...i dont always have to justify them, do i....
ah well...
cg
i've been meaning to update on the married friend i posted about a couple of posts ago...he read it and was a little upset...
anyhow, i did something that for sure many people would not do, but...here it goes...i gave him some money because he had nothing and, at the time, was snowing and he had no electricity...so...i gave him money for that, some gas, and food....
i did it as a friend, because there are times when i have needed help (not necessarily financially), and someone has freely given that assistance...he never asked for it either...i freely gave it, no strings...the question here is this: was there anyone else, a family member or other friend, that could have helped him out?...the answer is: not exactly...for whatever extenuating circumstances there are, he does not have that kind of relationship with them...it wasnt much, only $250...but it is an enormous amount when you dont have it...
here's a question for everyone (completely unrelated to the above information): if you arent physically attracted to someone, do you still go out with that person out of curiosity that something may develop or do you just keep it as friends?...the reason i ask is that someone i know has been asking me out a lot (i continually say no) and i am tempted to say yes for some unknown reason...if you ask me "do you like him"....i'd say...eh...i guess...the answer is "i should like him in "that" way"..but...i dont...at least i dont think i do...or do i just say that because i'd rather not fuss with it all...anyhow, i am thinking of say "yes" just for the hell of it...not sure why...i sometimes lack the ability to justify my answers...but then i realize...i dont always have to justify them, do i....
ah well...
cg
Monday, March 1, 2010
and then i came
it had been a long time since i had found something while browsing online that aroused me so much i had to come...of course, it had been a long time since i'd browsed online period without it relating to work...
because it had been so long the arousal was not a slow-building one...it was intense, fast, and hot...it wasnt necessarily what i was seeing/reading...it was that my brain said, "oh, yesss...i've missed that"...
and my brain sent this instant text message to the cradle of warmth between my legs and i was pleased to know i was able to achieve this intense arousal with little encouragement...
oh, how i enjoyed the wetness, the scent, my gasps for breath....that warm, melting feeling as i slipped away into this delicious place of heightened senses...further i fell into the welcoming arms of my own sensuality...
and then i came...
cg
because it had been so long the arousal was not a slow-building one...it was intense, fast, and hot...it wasnt necessarily what i was seeing/reading...it was that my brain said, "oh, yesss...i've missed that"...
and my brain sent this instant text message to the cradle of warmth between my legs and i was pleased to know i was able to achieve this intense arousal with little encouragement...
oh, how i enjoyed the wetness, the scent, my gasps for breath....that warm, melting feeling as i slipped away into this delicious place of heightened senses...further i fell into the welcoming arms of my own sensuality...
and then i came...
cg
Sunday, February 28, 2010
update and a funny i came across
okay, so update on the last few months...i've been hibernating...i dont know how those of you who live where it snows all the time can handle that lingering cold weather...i used to think "oh, how fun!"...yeah...well, that was before the warm temperatures took a lickin' and ran away from mid nov to now...i know, i know, i am just whining, but this texas flower just ain't used to it none!...
someone i've known for a long time recently told me some interesting stuff...if you are reading this, dont get mad, just know that no one on here knows who you you are (let's hope!)...
first - we started up communications again last spring...
second - he has attempted self-euthanasia (my own term for it) twice in about 4 or 6 weeks
third - he told me two days ago that: a) when we started up communications again he was MARRIED (still is) b) he has a child he NEVER told me about
he said he never told me because he was afraid he would lose me...hmm...but you were married with a baby on the way...that would have been nice information to know...granted, he says they were unhappy, but still...
i told him that he needs to shift his fixation off of me and onto himself and his child (he is in process of divorce)...
i am not angry...i am super-surprised...but,like i told him, in a way i am not...i always knew he wasnt telling me everything...things centered around his depression and me to the point that i felt a lot of guilt when he would tell me about his s-e attempts...primarily because of the "i wanted something and i know i cant have it" (me)...
now i totally understand that it really has nothing to do with me (which i knew inside) but with the drama of being married, having a child, not being with that child (i wont go into that here), and the complications that result when you try to take your life twice and have the realities of life to go back to...the problems do not go away...
i do not know if he wants to help himself tho...i think, in a sense, it is easier to not face the realities, let them overwhelm him...he sees life as insurmountable...something to fall away from...the depression and other issues do not help, and yes, he is seeking medical help for all of that...
a friend of mine has suggested that i cut off total communication from him...that i cannot and should not help him...i see his point...
is it terrible that listening to his plight made me look at my own life and totally put things into perspective...nothing i have ever experienced has ever ever come remotely close to all of that...the most struggle was with EHB...i havent heard from her nor do i care to...what galls me is that in many ways i am very much like her...family!
oh!...also, here was a little funny i got from sage's blog...
LET ME SEE IF I GOT THIS RIGHT.
IF YOU CROSS THE NORTH KOREAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 12 YEARS HARD LABOR.
IF YOU CROSS THE IRANIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU ARE DETAINED INDEFINITELY.
IF YOU CROSS THE AFGHAN BORDER ILLEGALLY, YOU GET SHOT.
IF YOU CROSS THE SAUDI ARABIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE JAILED.
IF YOU CROSS THE CHINESE BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU MAY NEVER BE HEARD FROM AGAIN.
IF YOU CROSS THE VENEZUELAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE BRANDED A SPY AND YOUR FATE WILL BE SEALED..
IF YOU CROSS THE CUBAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE THROWN INTO POLITICAL PRISON TO ROT.
IF YOU CROSS THE U.S. BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET
* A JOB,
* A DRIVERS LICENSE,
* SOCIAL SECURITY CARD,
* WELFARE,
* FOOD STAMPS,
* CREDIT CARDS,
* SUBSIDIZED RENT OR A LOAN TO BUY A HOUSE,
* FREE EDUCATION,
* FREE HEALTH CARE,
* A LOBBYIST IN WASHINGTON
* BILLIONS OF DOLLARS WORTH OF PUBLIC DOCUMENTS PRINTED IN YOUR LANGUAGE
* THE RIGHT TO CARRY YOUR COUNTRYS FLAG WHILE YOU PROTEST THAT YOU DONT GET ENOUGH RESPECT
* AND, IN MANY INSTANCES, YOU CAN VOTE.
I JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE I HAD A FIRM GRASP ON THE SITUATION!
toodles!
cg
someone i've known for a long time recently told me some interesting stuff...if you are reading this, dont get mad, just know that no one on here knows who you you are (let's hope!)...
first - we started up communications again last spring...
second - he has attempted self-euthanasia (my own term for it) twice in about 4 or 6 weeks
third - he told me two days ago that: a) when we started up communications again he was MARRIED (still is) b) he has a child he NEVER told me about
he said he never told me because he was afraid he would lose me...hmm...but you were married with a baby on the way...that would have been nice information to know...granted, he says they were unhappy, but still...
i told him that he needs to shift his fixation off of me and onto himself and his child (he is in process of divorce)...
i am not angry...i am super-surprised...but,like i told him, in a way i am not...i always knew he wasnt telling me everything...things centered around his depression and me to the point that i felt a lot of guilt when he would tell me about his s-e attempts...primarily because of the "i wanted something and i know i cant have it" (me)...
now i totally understand that it really has nothing to do with me (which i knew inside) but with the drama of being married, having a child, not being with that child (i wont go into that here), and the complications that result when you try to take your life twice and have the realities of life to go back to...the problems do not go away...
i do not know if he wants to help himself tho...i think, in a sense, it is easier to not face the realities, let them overwhelm him...he sees life as insurmountable...something to fall away from...the depression and other issues do not help, and yes, he is seeking medical help for all of that...
a friend of mine has suggested that i cut off total communication from him...that i cannot and should not help him...i see his point...
is it terrible that listening to his plight made me look at my own life and totally put things into perspective...nothing i have ever experienced has ever ever come remotely close to all of that...the most struggle was with EHB...i havent heard from her nor do i care to...what galls me is that in many ways i am very much like her...family!
oh!...also, here was a little funny i got from sage's blog...
LET ME SEE IF I GOT THIS RIGHT.
IF YOU CROSS THE NORTH KOREAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 12 YEARS HARD LABOR.
IF YOU CROSS THE IRANIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU ARE DETAINED INDEFINITELY.
IF YOU CROSS THE AFGHAN BORDER ILLEGALLY, YOU GET SHOT.
IF YOU CROSS THE SAUDI ARABIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE JAILED.
IF YOU CROSS THE CHINESE BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU MAY NEVER BE HEARD FROM AGAIN.
IF YOU CROSS THE VENEZUELAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE BRANDED A SPY AND YOUR FATE WILL BE SEALED..
IF YOU CROSS THE CUBAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU WILL BE THROWN INTO POLITICAL PRISON TO ROT.
IF YOU CROSS THE U.S. BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET
* A JOB,
* A DRIVERS LICENSE,
* SOCIAL SECURITY CARD,
* WELFARE,
* FOOD STAMPS,
* CREDIT CARDS,
* SUBSIDIZED RENT OR A LOAN TO BUY A HOUSE,
* FREE EDUCATION,
* FREE HEALTH CARE,
* A LOBBYIST IN WASHINGTON
* BILLIONS OF DOLLARS WORTH OF PUBLIC DOCUMENTS PRINTED IN YOUR LANGUAGE
* THE RIGHT TO CARRY YOUR COUNTRYS FLAG WHILE YOU PROTEST THAT YOU DONT GET ENOUGH RESPECT
* AND, IN MANY INSTANCES, YOU CAN VOTE.
I JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE I HAD A FIRM GRASP ON THE SITUATION!
toodles!
cg
Saturday, February 27, 2010
surely you were meant to listen to this song
i've been a fan of trixie whitley for a while now and this latest collab effort is just amazing....supposedly the link is good for only 30 days...go listen...
cg
cg
Sunday, February 21, 2010
i want to fall in love with you...
she said...i want to love you like no one ever has or ever will...with no expectations...no derision...just warmth of heart and joy of spirit...
i want you to feel like you are capable of everything and anything you set out to try...and i want you to take my hand when you fall and feel like failure is all around...i want to care for you because you deserve it...because you are special to me, she said...
i want to feel the joy in your heart when you finally finish a challenging task...i want to feel your laugh deep inside my soul....i want to know you...and never let go...but never hold on...
this is what she said to me when i looked in the mirror this morning...
why must we feel guilty for wanting to love ourselves deeply and without fear...we forget that we are our very own best friends...when others chastise us for being who we are we apologize and make excuses...and even if they are always honest excuses...having to make them reduces our self-worth a little more each time...
we forget that we never have to apologize to ourselves...
it's been a long cold winter...even down here in texas...and yet i can feel the promise of renewal in the air...i can smell the earth turning and churning as new growth begins...
perhaps it's time for a little self-growth...
cg
i want you to feel like you are capable of everything and anything you set out to try...and i want you to take my hand when you fall and feel like failure is all around...i want to care for you because you deserve it...because you are special to me, she said...
i want to feel the joy in your heart when you finally finish a challenging task...i want to feel your laugh deep inside my soul....i want to know you...and never let go...but never hold on...
this is what she said to me when i looked in the mirror this morning...
why must we feel guilty for wanting to love ourselves deeply and without fear...we forget that we are our very own best friends...when others chastise us for being who we are we apologize and make excuses...and even if they are always honest excuses...having to make them reduces our self-worth a little more each time...
we forget that we never have to apologize to ourselves...
it's been a long cold winter...even down here in texas...and yet i can feel the promise of renewal in the air...i can smell the earth turning and churning as new growth begins...
perhaps it's time for a little self-growth...
cg
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